all mine.. only me..

someone new??

2012-02-20T15:10:00.002+08:00

i always told the adik2 who asked me..
how to behave when meeting someone..
it's usually someone new lor...
"just be urself..."
no matter what.. just came as urself..
and that's what i did...
just hoping that someone new won't run away scared..
owhh who cares..
love me or leave me...

Alif Satar - Cukup Indah

2012-02-07T23:37:00.001+08:00

ter'dedicated' lagu ni kat seseorang..
tanpa sedar bait2 lirik..
now malu sendiri..
demmmm..

ok nak g 'hide' dulu..

k bye..

nilai seorang wanita

2012-02-02T09:30:00.000+08:00

kredit : anonymous

Subhanallah..
begitu hebat peraturan Allah..
begitu besar nilainya...
seseorang yang dilahirkan sebagai wanita..
aku bersyukur dengan nikmatmu Ya Allah..

terkesima apabila membaca seorang anak perempuan..
apabila dilahirkan..
akan membuka pintu syurga untuk bapanya...
Ya Allah..
jika 2 perkara tidak dapat aku lakukan..
ku mohon agar aku dapat melaksanakan yang pertama..
untuk arwah Ayah yang sedang menanti di sana..
kau iringi lah kehidupanku semoga aku menjadi anak solehah..
yang boleh membawa ibu bapaku ke jannahmu..
Amin ya rabbal'alamin..

UK part 4 : Manchester & Liverpool

2012-01-30T15:45:00.000+08:00

hi lovey..
another part of my lone ranger trip..
this time i wanna share my experience..
while in Manchester and Liverpool..
two fave football county in my time..
and they still are..

enjoy...

Roy Keane babeh!!!

The legend : George Best

one n only : Mr Beckham

fine.. say what u want..

one time ago..
i'm this chick who love Manchester United...

and proud of it..
thanx to Mr David Beckham.. *drool*
coz i know someone who still love them..
wearing the t-shirt n so..
i dedicate this to him...
well he doesn't realize i'm exist tho..
such a waste...

next was the picture when i'm in Liverpool..

Liverpool damn cold the day i arrived..
n then i'm famish some more...
thanx God they got this stuff that i can eat..
until later..

The One That Got Away (cover version)

2012-01-30T12:52:00.006+08:00

i just loving this version more than original..

hope someday.. someone will dedicate this song to me..
ohh how romantic..

"...
In another life
I would make you stay
So I don't have to say
You were the one that got away
The one that got away
..."

enjoy...

let go.. i want to move on...

2012-01-27T14:30:00.000+08:00

you.. yeah you..
seriously.. nobody but you...
oh my.. it's not that Korean chick song...
i'm talking to u..

please go..
far far away from me..
and don't turn around..
don't ever look at me again..
coz i want to let u go n move on..

life kinda suck..
when i'm keep comparing everyone who came with u..
....
he's not handsome like u..
he's not sweet like u..
he's not open minded like u..
he's too good.. not like u...
oh well.. u're nothing like angel...
lalalala...
but still they're not u..
becoz for me..
u're the one...
the one that keep captured my heart no matter what..

for me to move on..
i need ur help -- to go away..
so i don't have a reminder of u...
just then..
maybe i'll stop comparing anyone with u...

'Auf Irfan Naufal

2012-01-26T15:40:00.000+08:00

this cute little guy is my 'cucu'..
oh my..
30 going to 31 already got grandson???!!
nah.. this my cousin's daughter's son..
name Muhammad 'Auf Irfan Naufal
haishh.. beautiful name but too long..
sorry ibu 'Auf.. hihihi
we make it short n call him 'Auf...
n he will call me nanny D..
errr fila, u want to be glamorous grandma ait??!!
yup.. as always.. hihihi

he born August 13th, 2011
mine is August 17th..
so 'Auf, we can celebrate together yeah...
just u n me...
lalala...

i heart this little boy very much..

he's not only the gems to the proud parents..
he's also the 1st child in our clique a.k.a diva gojes.. ^_^
he is our own prince charming...

nanny D 'Auf

2012 resolution??

2012-01-25T22:45:00.001+08:00

this was the 2012 resolution
the one that i supposed to achieve
well.. u won't call it resolution if u don't want to achieve it right..
bloody right fila...

ok ok.. let's see if i did achieved one of it..
no 1 - so far still maintain.. but too early to say anything...
no 2 , 3 , 4 - in track
no 5 - demm it's doing buggy jumping already.. lol
no 6 - i'm trying... seriously.. *hide*
no 7 - this so seriously insane i can let politician debate it in Parliament.. ^_^
with that say i never get enough sleep except the day i went for 3 days holiday..
no 8 - at the moment i'm happy.. so yeay me..
no 9 - don't want to talk bout it.. hahahaha

so that's it...
the opening entry for year 2012..
will try update it as frequent as i can..

so chows lovely...
muachhh..
heart each one of u who still be here until this moment..

memang dasar

2011-11-20T10:40:00.004+08:00

pergh membara jek ati aku..

kalau aku ader M16..

dah lama aku tembak sampai berlubang perut ko tu tau...

memang dasar...

get over you.. really???

2011-10-30T02:19:00.004+08:00

I don't know why..

maybe she's look so adorable??

or the song had some connection with myself??

whatever the reason it's got stuck in my head..

Happy BestDay a.k.a BornDay ANGAH!!!

2011-10-28T16:30:00.002+08:00

28.10.2011

Happy BestDay..
Happy BornDay...
Happy Everyday..
my dearest ANGAH!!!

have a blast time...

semoga ALLAH memberkati dirimu selamanya..

semoga Angah bertemu dengan wanita solehah..
yang boleh berkongsi segalanya..
yang boleh menjaga, mencintai, menyayangi Angah..
dan yg paling penting..
boleh menerima MAK seperti ibunya..
serta wanita itu mendapat RESTU daripada MAK...

ADEK h.e.a.r.t ANGAH f.o.r.e.v.e.r

\m/

flush ohh flush

2011-10-27T05:20:00.002+08:00

dah kenapa fila..
takde tajuk lagik best nak letak..
dah takde benda kamo nak cerita...

aish.. saja la nak kongsi..
it's my blog...
all mine..
suka la nak cerita apa benda pun kan...

ok ok.. straight to the subject...
no no.. fila not a princess..
so 'subject' here not refer to people..
but a subject...
lalalalala.. *kesengalan bermula*

FLUSH TOILET HILANG!!

hamek ko aku bagi caps lock lagik...

mesti korang kata setakat flush hilang..
nak kecoh satu dunia...
hohoho...

yer la..
harus la aku panik..
kat bilik air pompuan 3 bijik sekali hilang..
dan rege setiap satu = RM 400
total lost RM1200..
tu tak masuk upah pasang..
mau tak sakit jiwa aku..

demm...
sapa la yang lahabau sgt g amek flush tu..
kalau aku dapat..
aku ketuk kepala dia ngan batang flush tu...
tak pun aku sula jek biar mereka sedor diri..
jgn berani-berani mencuri flush di Skudai RSA...

benda ni jadi lagik..
last berlaku tahun lepas rasanya...

aishh nak kena waspada..
mereka dah mula kan operasi nampaknya..

memang tak takut dosa betul...
aisshhh..

chow...

Westlife - Lighthouse

2011-10-24T20:37:00.009+08:00

eventho i'm keeping all the cd safe n sound in my closet...
i can't resist the charm of Westlife new vid..
it's called 'LIGHTHOUSE'

yes i cried.. again n again..
still not strong enuf to face them..

but even my niece said the song so good..

i quote "best la maksu lagu Westlife ni"

so let's enjoy..

i nak cari tissue..

T___T

WESTLIFE u're my LIGHTHOUSE

princess in every girl..

2011-10-24T14:05:00.000+08:00

princess in every girl

enuf said

\m/

princess of heartbroken..

2011-10-23T13:55:00.002+08:00

and there goes my heart...

broken once again...

hey u.. congrats for the new job n gf..

u take care ok...

don't worry..

i'll live..

the heartbroken is my new bestfriend..

now i gave a title to meself..

the Princess of Heartbroken...

\m/

no WESTLIFE = NO life

2011-10-21T17:27:00.004+08:00

20 October 2011 : 01:32am
i'm gutted..
my heart beat just stop one second
*kalau lebih second mati namanya*
well devastated not really a word..
i felt so down..
HEARTBROKEN..
SAD..
u name it...
the tears just won't stop..
i just lost for word..

huh.. can't keep track what am saying??

yess dearie..
there will be no WESTLIFE after next 2012 farewell tour...
they're splitting up..
under the amicable reason..

WHAT THE HELL...

i just had this most amazing time at their concert..
2 concerts..
Belfast n Malaysia..
got to 'chase' the lads at the KLIA airport..
and got respond from Shane..
*yes he answered my question*
at the concert Nicky wave at my camera..
*i'm feeling so damn lucky*
all those thing that i never imagined can happened to me..
i get almost what i ever dream off..
since I fall in love with them year 1998..
and then because of Westlife…
I met all those amazing fans that became my friends..

and than.. BAMM..

fine...
it's not that i didn't knew this thing will happen..
it will..
i knew from day one..
but i just didn't imagined it will happened so fast..
so near just after i had a blast time...

oh man... i had enuf crying...
that's why i won't try to go to their last concert...
because i knew i will cry the whole night..
and some more..
no fund meh...

even if i can try n look for other way to go.
think better not..
i want to remember them as a band that gave me happy moment..
that make me laugh along with my friends..
that make me smile no matter what happened..
that help me became stronger when there's a bummer..
and Westlife show me that dreams do come true..

i'm non the wiser..
but i can tell u..
there's the loyalty in me..
bloody hell it's 13 going to 14 years...
if it's not loyalty.. i donno what...

oh MY..
it's so hard...
it's like taking half ur heart n keep it in fridge...
i can't feel anything right now...

now u know why so sudden i'm writing on my blog..
coz i can't face the FB, the twitter..
not even a single song from them...
i just can't...
it will put me in tears...
even changed my wallpaper that i tribute to them..
just hoping i'll find another strength..
need time to let the dust settle..
so i can still love them like i did before..
coz hell.. i know i will..
u can take Westlife out of business,..
but u will never take Westlife from my heart..

Westlife lads.. i wish u well..
hope u find whatever u seek from this heartbreaking split..
LOVE u till the end...
le gra..

terkujat kucing...

2011-10-21T17:27:00.000+08:00

adoiyaii..

terkujat kucing gtu..
*erkk kesian kucing jadi mangsa*
tetiba my blog have been removed..
dah kenapa?? ko sakit ker BLOG???
sakit hati sebab aku tak update kamo yer..

ish ish ish..
tak patut tau buat tuan kamo mcm tu..
nanti aku tak nak upload gambo2 chantek..
baru tau...
masa tu kamo tukar jd prince william pun aku buat dek jek..

dah dah..
kamo dok jek diam2 ek..
nanti ader masa n ketika..
aku update la kamo..
banyak jek benda yg dah draft..
just nak finalize..
n tadaaaa...
so sabo...
sabo tu kan separuh drpd iman...
cuba kuat2 kan iman kamo tuh..
hohoho..

ok geng..
fila's out...

UK part 3 (Scotland : Glasgow & Edinburgh)

2011-09-05T02:00:00.024+08:00

hiya geng..
here we go again...
the very next part of my UK lone ranger trip...
i know, it's been very much late..
but better late than never, ait??!!

the 3rd part was my journey in Glasgow & Edinburgh, Scotland..
nothing much to tell (read : too much)
better let's the picture do the talking...

conclusion :
Scotland one of the oldest town n much beauty with it's own culture, landscape n architecture...

enjoy!!!

this how i look if i'm slim..
don't like much..
i heart my curve.. lol

that's it for now..
until later...
muachhh...

kecil hati yg kecil...

2011-09-04T11:39:00.004+08:00

kecil hati..
terasa hati...
sakit hati...
segala yg berkaitan dengan hati...
cuma yg tiada adalah..
cinta hati...

demmm...
tak mampo nak merajuk..
so pasrah jek la....

moga ahli keluarga dilindungiNya..
daripada manusia durjana...
yang hanya tahu memecahbelahkan keluarga....

salam lebaran...

2011-08-31T17:52:00.001+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI..

MOHON AMPUN ZAHIR BATIN..

MINTA HALAL SEGALANYA...

JAGA DIRI..

ENJOY...

~ wacha ~

stress tahap dewa...

2011-08-24T15:34:00.003+08:00

stress
.
.
.
.
.
.
stress
.
.
.
.
penat aku ngan crew deco raya ala2 eric..
semangat bagai hape...
menganyam ketupat sampai tak tido...
tak kisah penat sebab seronok nengok hasil yg cantek...
tp td aku datang semua dah kosong...
siling kosong...
dan aku tak sempat nak amek gambo..
stress aku jadinya..
rasa nak tarik semua saki baki deco kat cashier, chiller segala...
kalau nak kosong,..
biar kosong terus...
tapi mak pujuk aku...
suruh bersabar...
lagik stress aku jadinya...
mak nak sangat nengok deco raya yg kami dah buat...
sebab aku kata cantek..
mak kata nak nengok raya nanti..
now apa pun takde dah...
stress... stress.. stress...

semuanya salah siling yg jatuh semalam..
tapi siling tu bukan jatuh sebab kena usik ke hape...
tetiba jatuh sendiri...
tapi deco raya kami gak yg jadi mangsa...
walhal deco tu tak kena mengena pun dgn siling yg jatuh...
jauh dr tempat kejadian...

AAARRRGGGHHHHHHH

AKU STRESS

wonder if still can get 'duit raya'??!!

2011-08-20T16:30:00.007+08:00

salamz geng...

it's already 20th ramadhan..
plus minus, insya-Allah in 9 days we will celebrate Aidilfitri...
wonder if i still can get 'duit raya' from my brothers...
my big BIG brother precisely...

well, bonus raya not count since it's from work...
(even tho i'm working with my brother)
won't feel fair coz everyone got 'duit raya' from the boss..
i should get double...
from boss n bro.. ^_^
as it should be.. ait???!!

i just wonder...
if the big brothers will give me 'duit raya' as a gift to their little sister...
(fine.. i'm not so little but i'm always their little sista)

well that's just a thought...
who me to demand such thing..
fila.. sila bersyukur ok..
this time around.. i miss my Ayah gave away..
who will give me the highest 'duit raya' among others..
(T___T)

oh no..
i got the highest from my boss + my big BIG bro back then..
after my dad pass away..
but it years ago...

don't be sad

2011-08-18T19:52:00.003+08:00

fila...
don't be SAD..
coz ALLAH know what best for you...

~ selalulah bersangka baik padaNYA ~

u get it if it's meant for you...

GAMBATTE

ramadhan 2011

2011-08-04T18:11:00.003+08:00

ramadhan dah masuk hari ke 4..
baru ler tergedek-gedek nak post entri..
tak paham aku tau.. hohoh

ampun jek la yer geng..
semenjak dua menjak ni..
bukak blog, tulis, save, tutup..
dekat berminggu-minggu gtu..
dok ulang benda yg sama...
ntah rasuk apa yg malas sgt ntah...

so sebagai pembuka selera untuk menulis semula..
yer kawan2..
bukan pembuka selera untuk berbuka ya..
tu mungkin untuk entri laen...
aku nak ucap selamat berpuasa untuk family dan kengkawan semua..
semoga ramadhan tahun ini lebih membawa keberkatan kepada kita semua..
aminn...

yg penting ramadhan tahun ini perlu mengajar aku..
untuk tabah menghadapai apa sahaja..
aku perlu kuat..
kerana tinggal beberapa hari saje lagik..
aku tidak lagik budak di ambang 20-an..
sudah mau 3 series gtu..
so harus la lebih matang...
perlu pandai mendahulukan apa yg penting..
ok tipu...
aku suka jek nak mendahulukan apa yg aku rasa nak dulu..
tak kesah la penting ker tidak..
yg musti, penting untuk aku, keluarga dan seumpamanya..
aceh ceh...

udah udah la tu fila..
cukup2 la membelek blog ko tu..
bukan dgn tatap screen macdee..
tetiba blog boleh bertukar..
jadi si gadis sunti yg rupawan..
hohoho...
baek ko g ngaji sementara nak tunggu berbuka..
ader la pekdah..
aiseyman...
until later geng...

UK trip... part 2 (Dublin, Ireland)

2011-05-29T16:14:00.012+08:00

hear hear...
fila in the house..
let's get jiggy with it.. LOL

ok.. that's way too much...
i donno what the motive i wrote like that..
to spice up thing a little bit, maybe?? hahahah

orait... let's leave that silly thing behind..
and move with me..
to the journey of my adventure (like - yeah...)

the 1st part that include Belfast, Ireland is up..
now let's continue to the 2nd part..

~ D.U.B.L.I.N ~
dated April 6th, 2011

i love Dublin..
love it.. l.O.v.E it..
LOVE IT...

ok enough said..
but the truth is i do love Ireland..
1) it's where Shane Filan n Westlife origin
2) they're just lovely country (outside Malaysia)

don't believe me?? go n see urself..
or maybe u can enjoy some of it from my not-so-pro lens..
enjoy...

this feet love to walk - in Dublin.. lol

Dergvale Hotel, Dublin

Zaytoon - Persian Cuisine

thanx to my friend who googling it for me..
i'd walked for one and half hour to find this bloody place..
but it's worth it.. coz they are H.A.L.A.L food..
it's just sandwich since Belfast..

here the food..

they called it 'The Spike'..
so high... and make it so awesome..
and also look so dangerous..
one spot that i would look out if i ever get lost (read : sometimes).. lol

this Sir a very nice man..
so damn friendly..
he talked..
n even advise me to keep safe of my belonging..

so do this girls..
they're so tall even they just in high school..
look how short i am (T___T) *sigh*
and they are so very sweet..
i mean really (look at one of those girl's hand)
big lollipop.. so much sugar gonna make u sweet..
*kidding*

the down under was the picture in W.A.X museum..
enjoy...

that's it for now...
we meet again in next part..
until later...

not for kid's eyes...

2011-05-25T23:35:00.004+08:00

yup..
seriously all kids (like there's any)..
close ur eyes rite about now...
coz this post definitely not for u..

don't say i didn't warn u...

.

.

.

.

kill..

kill..

kill..

die...

die....

R.E.A.L.I.T.Y S.U.X

tq very much life...

UK trip... (Belfast, Ireland)

2011-05-23T10:46:00.025+08:00

hi there....
ok ok.. sorry for making u guys waiting..
i'm so bloody busy..
err.. kinda..

here the 1st part of many part...
first and foremost..
Belfast, Ireland..
and the biggest reason i went there..
other than my lone ranger dream trip..

was this one..

Westlife Gravity Tour - 5th April 2011

now let's the picture do the talking for the others yeah...
*since i'm not totally in da mood to write.. S.O.R.R.Y*

this feet gonna go even further..

The HILTON, Belfast

the flower start to bloom

with my new friend a.k.a Westlife's fan from Poland (Magda n Anka)

The Odyssey Arena, Belfast

cute stall in the city centre

PRIMARK, Belfast

there goes the HILTON

with Magda infront of Belfast Hall

hop in hop out bus..

The Big Fish

with Anka at the fish tail.. LOL

love it here..
the atmosphere so in peace..
no chaos no nothing...
the walking around town was so lovely..
except i can't enjoying the food..
and the weather so bloody cold...
definitely wanna come again..

gambo UK untuk cham's

2011-05-03T20:10:00.004+08:00

ni gambo kat Dublin, Ireland..
dated : 4th April 2011

khas untuk cham's..
yg laen sila check out my FB ok dear..
see.. takde la sampai tahun depan baru i upload kan..
hahahah

the sweet rejection...

2011-04-26T00:41:00.004+08:00

sweet rejection???
ko giler aper fila..
rejection pun sweet..
memang kompem esok masuk spital gila...

i called it sweet rejection..
coz it's make me realized..
that's life really not what we expected..
(tau dah.. tapi saje buat2 lupa)
whatever we want...
we never get it..
whatever we need...
we never truly achieved it..
even how bad we think we deserved it...
ain't it damn crazy????
it's so sweet n gonna make me having a diabetic...
it's bloody unhealthy...
and sweet rejection just a word for my not-so-heartless heart...
( thought i'm not having jiwa kaco : i'm WRONG )
the truth is i feel like dying...
dying.. drowning...
i thought i'm gonna be stronger the 2nd time.
it worst...
i still have hope in myself the 1st time..
but the hope for myself gone with the wind the 2nd time..
gone n not coming back..
double damn...

( T _____ T )

hurmm.. takmo jiwa2 kacau la...

2011-04-24T18:45:00.000+08:00

alhamdulillah...
my lone ranger UK trip sudah selesai...
walau sempat merasa panic sekejap kat PARIS..
it's really fun ride..
really really adventure...
and i won't trade it with anything..
the experience such a sweet mémoire for me...

hurmm...
oppsss kisah lone ranger trip tu sambung kemudian yer...
akan saya sertakan gambo2 yg sopan..
yg aksi terlampau tuh kena simpan elok2..
takut kena sue pulak..
hahahha

bila dirantauan...
hati merindu...
biasa la berjauhan kan...
*jeng jeng jeng*
pikir la dik...
tak dapek jawapan punya..
kes admirer yg tak baper nak secret..
but no such respond..
not the one i like to hear..

so...
seperti biasa...
hati ni dah ala2 heartless...
jadi harus buat another aim...
supaya tak terjebak dlm jiwa kacau seperti dulu..

nak kumpul duit..
nak buat EUROPE TRIP pulak...
hah.. hamek ko...
tak teragak-agak..
harus la belajar france atau spanish..
itu perancangan dan impian tambahan..
(supposed UK trip impian trip terbesar)
but people can change...
especially bab melibatkan jiwa raga ni..
so will see la yer...
i'll give 2 to 3 years..
insya-Allah...
aminn...

almost time...

2011-03-29T14:11:00.003+08:00

it's almost time...
not too long...
i'll leave u behind..
then u'll be leaving too..
i won't see u when i'm coming back..
but really hoping to see u...
soon..
very soon..
before we both leaving..

wishing u all the best..
with whatever future hold for u..
hopefully u finally found what u been searching..
and live a happy life..

then i'll be missing u..
very much...
like always...
indeed..

school holiday n ber'dating'

2011-03-14T13:41:00.006+08:00

hi guys..
sowie la menyepi diri..
school holiday is here..
so seperti biasa ke'bz'ian melanda warga Skudai RSA..
termasuk la yg tengah menulis blog ni hah..

aku baru keluar dr chiller...
sejuk beb..
rasa beku segala anggota..
harus la mencari sesuatu (read : seseorang) untuk panaskan..
muahahaha...

ok bad joke..
biasa la kalau keluar dr chiller..
otak mesti sedikit mereng..
sebab seakan-akan brain freeze..
weehhuuuu...

ohh selain sibuk sebab cuti skolah..
aku pun sibuk ber'dating'..
(tak agak2 guna kosa kata 'dating'..)
dgn bb baru...
bb beroda empat..
name L.E.O..
(tukar nama dr d'F sebab L.E.O mcm ganazz plus manja gtu)
born into family hari Jumaat lepas ; 11-03-11...
jam 15:45...
hah hamek ko.. jgn marah, siap ader time..

and the 'amazing' thing bout L.E.O..
baru 3 hari bersama..
dier dah buat aku 'excersice'...
more when i had bb J for whole 7 years..
padan la muka aku sebab gatal2 amek kaler putih..
padahnya kena la selalu mandikan si L.E.O..
especially selepas hujan...
P.E.N.G.S.A.N

GLEE-wind: Silly Love Songs

2011-03-07T17:50:00.002+08:00

i'm not a fan..
but now i'm falling in love with GLEE.. BIG TIME..
crazy bout them the 1st time i saw Blaine (Darren Chris) singing..
He just so talented..
Sing brilliantly (Shane still no 1, mind u)..
He also can dance..
and when he talked..
just make my heart melt..
alrite, enough bout Darren..

another one who got my attention is PUCK..
*i like him before i even like GLEE*

he's cool..
very cool indeed..
with bad ass attitude..
and cute too..
*this vid clip prove it...*
the kind that mostly girl fall for..
n i almost fall him too..
well, let's say already do when i saw this vid..

check it out..
can't wait for the full episode..
*or is it already been aired??*

*ohh there's Blaine beside Kurt singing at the end..*

moral of the story : bad ass attitude guys sometimes can be too sweet.. (^_^)

wishing upon the star...

2011-03-05T14:01:00.003+08:00

~ fiesta ~
feel the difference..

*sigh*

older, wiser, hotter, sexier...

2011-03-03T00:23:00.008+08:00

THIS IS THE PROVE...
i love him more nowadays than da 1st time..
and even after 12 years..
nothing change...
he can still make my heart skip a beat..

*and he is only my imaginary love*
*hoping to give da same attention to R.E.A.L person*
*guys.. aren't u feeling lucky?? LOL*

~ Shane Filan ~
courtesy of Nicky Byrne twitpic

one n only's birthday...

2011-02-28T11:11:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Lahir Mak..
Semoga Allah memberkati Mak selama-lamanya..
dipanjangkan usia..
diberikan kesihatan dan kekuatan..
dikayakan dengan kasih sayang...
dikurniakan rezeki yang melimpah ruah..
semoga segala doa Mak diperkenankan olehNya..
aminn..

***************************

Mak ibu adek..
one n only.. yang teristimewa..
Mak juga teman terbaek adek..
yang sangat memahami adek dan abang2 adek yang laen..
Mak juga juru runding adek..
cuma kenkadang adek jek yg tak reti nak ikut.. huhuh
Mak juga teman shopping yang paling best..
u have an eyes for beauty...
Tak dapat disangkal chef terbaek dalam kehidupan kami..
juga dalam kehidupan mereka2 yang pernah menjamah masakan mak..
Terkadang Mak lantik diri jadi bendahari adek..
sebab adek ni kengkadang shopping tak hengat..
Mak juga teman travel yang sangat cool..
Mak juga ibu mertua (kepada akak2 ipar adek) yang paling sporting..
Mak dihormati sepupu sepapat adek dan member adek seperti ibu sendiri..
Mak juga nenek yang super duper amazing..
dan yang paling utama..
Mak adalah isteri tercinta Ayah adek..
Isteri solehah untuk Suami terhebat..
hanya kalian di hati kami...

sekali lagi..
Selamat Hari Lahir Mak..
al-fatihah Ayah..
adek S.A.Y.A.N.G Mak dan Ayah...

happy besday mr luke..

2011-02-25T19:45:00.004+08:00

source here

happy besday mr luke..
hope u have a blast burfday..
May Allah bless you..
give you a good health n wealth..
may your dreams comes true..

*please don't get angry..i know u don't like to be a subject in my blog*
*it's the only way to show u that i appreciate u as my dear friend*

lapar vs sejuk beku..

2011-02-25T13:40:00.003+08:00

adeii...
nak kata aku ni tak boleh fikir..
Allah dah kurniakan akal..
mungkin kurang bijak jek kot..

tetiba kelaparan tahap dewa melanda...
budak2 ni g beli makanan bukan nak pelawa aku..
*padan muka ko fila, selalu depa tanya ko tak mo*
*diet kunun.. piraahh*
adeeii kali kedua..

jadi nak mengelakkan rasa lapar tuh..
aku pun berjalan-jalan dalam c-store..
nampak air kat chiller sikit lopong..
so masuk dlm chiller dan susun air...
best... sejuk jek..
hilang rasa lapar..
sat gik.. tangan sedikit kejung...
*kes buat keja tp tak nak pakai sarung tangan*
*budget diri tu seperti super women*
adeeii kali ketiga...

apa lagik, settle keja cepat2 keluar..
macam kena kejar hantu beb..
padahal tak tahan sejuk dan rasa nak beku anggota badan..
kemudian satu magic berlaku...
rasa kelaparan yang tak terkata..
lebih daripada tahap dewa...

lapar vs sejuk beku..
memang tak boleh blah..
lagik sejuk.. lagik lapar rupanya..
itu la namanya kurang bijak aku ni..

moral of the story : kalau dah lapo tu.. makan jek ler..

5 saman untuk bb J?? tahniah..

2011-02-24T17:54:00.002+08:00

since bb J dah tak bersama aku..
along dengan berbesar hati...
hantar aku balik umah..
sebab aku dengan dedikasi dah kerja 24 jam..
*boleh gitu??*

so dalam perjalanan pulang tuh..
along bawak aku singgah balai polis skudai..
sebab nak check saman lalu lintas..

aku dok dalam keta..
sebab parking takde..
kiranya jadi penjaga kereta gitu..
i like..
siap membuta sambil tunggu along uolss..
sebab agak lama la..
*along kata orang ramai giler nak bayar saman*

sebagai abang yang sayang kan adik..
along siap check kan saman bb J..
wallaweeii...
sekali ader 5 saman daa...
T.A.H.N.I.A.H bb J..
yang 'best' giler kentang..
saman tahun zaman tok kadok gitu...
adeeiii...
fening la kepala ana..
tapi nak wat camner kan..
benda dah jadi..
mungkin aku tak perasan bila terkena saman ekor ni..
tapi 3 out of 5..
saman halang lalu lintas..
rasa nak gelak pun ader...

agaknya bb J tuh sebesar gajah kot..
terhalang kenderaan laen nak lalu...
padahal aku tak gila lagik nak park bb J tengah2 jalan..

adeiii..
pepe pun..
thanx along sebab tolong advancekan bayar saman..
nanti potong gaji bulan depan la ek..
huhuhu...

dengan itu..
aku berazam..
nak jadi pemandu yang sangat berhemah...
dengan new bb nanti...

tak koser tau aku nak bayar saman..
bukan sikit pulak tuh..
dekat rm600 tu..
kalau kena dua kali amaun yang sama dan tambah sikit lagi..
dah boleh beli kasut christian louboutin...
hohohoh...

tapi mujur depa kasi diskaun..
so hanya bayar half of it...
but still...
aisshhh..
kaya la PDRM beberapa hari ni collect duit saman..

danggg...

faceblog?? cool

2011-02-24T03:00:00.006+08:00

since aku kerja 24 jam..
rasa ngantuk yg amat..
sajer merajinkan diri bloghopping..
tgh hop hop...
terjumpa entry pasal faceblog ni kat page miss ieka..
macam sangat cool aje..

kalau miss ieka kata dier nak kepoh..
aku pun nak double kepoh jugak..
so sebagai manusia yang keprihatinan untuk berblog tu terkadang-kadang..
aku pun nak join jugak..
supaya semangat nak update blog tuh...
sama rajin mcm aku update facebook..

so here goes...

SELAMAT DATANG DIUCAPKAN KEPADA SEMUA YANG SUDI HADIR KE THE FACEBLOG. TUJUAN FACEBLOG DIWUJUD IALAH ATAS DASAR UNTUK MENGUMPUL DAN MEMBINA SATU KOMUNITI BLOGGER KHUSUSNYA DI SELURUH MALAYSIA DAN DUNIA AMNYA. MARILAH KITA BERSATU DAN BERKERJASAMA DALAM MEMBANTU RAKAN-RAKAN BLOGGER KITA DI SELURUH MALAYSIA. SEPERTI FACEBOOK, KAMI JUGA MEMPUNYAI TUJUAN YANG SAMA IAITU MENJALINKAN HUBUNGAN YANG LEBIH ERAT ANTARA PARA BLOGGER DI SELURUH MALAYSIA SELARAS DENGAN TEMA YANG KAMI GUNAKAN IAITU SEAKAN-AKAN TEMA FACEBOOK. SERTAILAH KAMI DAN BERSAMA KITA MEMERIAHKAN DUNIA BLOG MALAYSIA.
TERIMA KASIH

yok rakan-rakan blogger..
kiter join dan kasi happening ini FACEBLOG

tidur la fila..

2011-02-23T01:41:00.004+08:00

jam dah 1.41 am..
badan boleh tahan letih...
mata memang mengantuk..
tapi ntah kenapa tak leh nak tido pulok...

turn in awal..
since esok nak pegi keja pagi..
rasa dah dekat 10.. 20 kali guling kiri n kanan..
last2 bangun...
on macdee n online..
adeeeiiii...
tidur la fila...
semoga bila dah tidur..
tak pulak terbangun pukul 3 pagi..
macam 3 4 hari dulu..
penat doug...

hurmmm..
kalau arwah ayah masih ada..
tentu tak ada masalah nak tidur dengan lena..
dodoian 'tidurlah permaisuri' peneman setia...
ataupun..
cukup lah dapat melabuhkan kepala di paha arwah...
memang tak akan bangun sampai ke sudah..
adek rindu AYAH..
al-fatihah..

Sultan hinggap di stesen..

2011-02-20T12:36:00.004+08:00

Sultan Ibrahim dan rombongan di dlm limo

B.A.N.G.G.A.
sebagai anak johor..
yang sayangkan Sultan..
terasa gembira dan sedikit bahagia..
apabila Baginda dan rombongan hinggap sebentar di stesen..

si Putera kecil nak santap BK rupanya..

kalau dah Ayahanda seorang yg berjiwa rakyat..
tidak sombong..
begitu juga anak2 Baginda..
Putera n Puteri yg lain ader yang turun dan masuk ke kedai..
'shopping' apa yang patut sebagai bekalan..
dan bila keluar dan bertembung..
tidak pula lokek menghulurkan senyuman..

unlike sesetengah artis atau celebrity tuh..
kita senyum pun buat tak nampak jek...
hurmmm...

signature.. sana sini sinun..

2011-02-16T13:24:00.004+08:00

perghhh..
hari ni terasa seperti celebrity pulok...
dok signature sana sini sinun...
agak teruja occay..
sebab 1st time sign agreement..
ohhh since dah jadi 'celebrity' ni..
kena la ader 'speech' kan..
buat along tersayang..
thanx for the support..
thanx for everything..
u made my dream almost comes true..

alhamdulillah..
done agreement part..
waiting for the item only...
hopefully can get it early next month..
since they can't deliver end of this month..
*finger crossed*

mata sembab...

2011-02-15T01:19:00.001+08:00

padan muka..
sapa suh nanges cam dak kecik..
kan mata dah sembab..
padan muka...
esok mesti muka tak comel..
sebab mata sembab..
padan muka..
penyakit cari sendiri..
adeiiii

terima kasih..

2011-02-14T18:18:00.002+08:00

terima kasih..
kerana menyedarkan saya..
tentang tugas saya..
tentang S.I.A.P.A saya...

saya terima..
marah lah saya..
herdik la saya..
caci la saya..
jika saya tidak melakukan kerja sempurna..
seperti sepatutnya..

tetapi saya mohon..
jangan kata saya tidak hormat orang..
bahawa saya perlu hormat orang lain untuk dihormati..
saya bukan tuan besar untuk dihormati..
saya sedar diri...
kalau saya tidak hormat kepada sesama manusia..
saya tidak akan ada di sini..

anda percaya mereka..
mereka pekerja yang bagus..
jadi siapa saya untuk mempertikai..

tetapi saya hairan...
sedikit musykil..
pekerja yang H.E.B.A.T itu..
tidak jujur apabila saya bertanya..
duduk ber'sms'...
melepak di stor tanpa buat kerja...
salah mereka??
T.I.D.A.K
semuanya salah saya..
saya tidak kenalkan siapa saya...
jadi bukan salah mereka..
jika tidak jujur dengan saya...
ohh ya..
saya juga silap dan terlupa bertemu secara semuka..
bentang segala peraturan di tempat kerja..
apa yang boleh dan tidak boleh..
tidak bertegas..
tidak menegur..
tidak menerangkan..
kerana itu kerja saya..
YA FILA.. ITU KERJA KAMU!!!
dan kamu G.A.G.A.L..
kamu G.AG.A.L untuk jadi manusia harapan..
i'm da L.O.S.E.R...

terima kasih..
kerana sudi menegur..
mengingatkan saya
bahawa saya tak akan pernah..
jadi manusia H.A.M.P.I.R.S.E.M.P.U.RN.A..

stress??? agak la..

2011-02-11T19:00:00.004+08:00

stress ker fila??
selalu aku stress sebab banyak keja..
stress jugak la tak dapat nak nikmati waktu berehat..
stress sebab dah lama tak dapat 'me' time..
stress sebab lama amat tak g nengok wayang..

tapi 2 hari ni aku stress...
sebab kerja tak sebanyak sebelum ni..

giler?? aku giler??
stress sebab kurang kerja??
tak tipu beb...
seyes..
boleh la korang kategorikan aku..
giler kerja...
freak pun aku terima..
hahahahah

sebabnya aku dah terbiasa busy...
since balik dari sana..
ader masa mcm tak menang tangan..
kerja bagai nak apa..
balik umah, makan, mandi..
buat apa yg patut..
ucap selamat malam kat mak..
then TIDO...

dan oleh kerana aku tidak begitu busy sewaktu kerja...
dah dua malam..
aku bergolek..
berpusing sepuluh kali..
dari baring atas katil..
turun ke lantai...
naek semula..
tapi mata tak nak tido jugak..
memang sangat hampeh..
bila penat bergolek kat katil...
aku boleh turun dan nengok tv pulak...
padahal esok harus bangun pagi...
hampeh untuk kali kedua...

dan hari ni keadaan ok..
cuma tak busy tahap dewa..
yg memerlukan aku seperti kena histeria..
lari ke sana ke mari..
semoga aku dapat tido lena..
agar tak stress lagik..

hujan rahmat...

2011-01-31T19:44:00.002+08:00

alhamdulillah...
hujan dari Allah..
dah 3 hari hujan berterusan..
memang ler sejuk sepanjang masa...
apa lagik duk dlm kedai yg aircond sejuk bagai nak apa....
tapi wajib bersyukur...
kerana hujan ni mengajar erti kesabaran n kekuatan..

sabar menahan sejuk..
sabar apabila ditempias rintik hujan..
sabar apabila kengkadang penat melihat wiper 'berjalan'
sabar apabila pakaian tidak kering di ampaian..
dan sabar sebab sentiasa kelaparan.. LOL

kemudian..

kuat untuk bangun drpd katil..
kuat untuk mandi, bersiap pergi kerja..
kuat untuk tahan makan.. *perlu la, tgh diet*
dan kuat untuk jadi manusia yg penyabar...

semoga hujan yg Allah turunkan ini...
membawa rahmat kepada hambaNya..
aminn...

new born : my own lil family..

2011-01-30T10:44:00.004+08:00

thanx to my loves one..
u know who u're..

name : eioshi
born into family : 27th January 2011

mau cari guru.. anyone?? *wink wink*

kenangan terindah..

2011-01-05T13:00:00.000+08:00

hati tiba-tiba sayu..

rindu keadaan di SANA...
rindu keindahan ciptaan-Nya..
rindu kebesaran yang terdiri gah di SANA..
juga rindu bibit2 waktu sewaktu di SANA..
bila mana aku sentiasa berulit dengan IBU TERCHENTA..
setiap waktu.. walau ke mana sahaja...

al-maklum la..
dah kami ke SANA berdua...
haruslah berdua..

pengalaman pelbagai..
mcm2 jenis manusia dan perangai yg aku lihat...
dan pelbagai perkara yg aku pelajari..
alhamdulillah..
Allah beri aku peluang lebih awal...

dan apa yg dipaparkan bukan untuk bermegah..
tidak sikit terniat di hati...
hanya ingin berkongsi rasa...
dengan teman2 istimewa..
*what?? surprise??? seriously, kalian sgt sgt istimewa*

Gua Thur

with mum dearie

Jabal Rahmah

Masjid Nabawi

Al-Janadriyah Hotel @ Mecca

Masjid Quba

@Madinatul Hujjah

Leica S2

2011-01-03T20:50:00.003+08:00

courtesy of shashinki.com

- RM79,985.00 -

terkebil-kebil mata bila melihat figure yg terbentang..
sambil menelan kesat air liur..

hanya mampu bermimpi...

ini la yg dikatakan..
cinta (pd Leica) tidak bermakna memiliki..
danggg...

gugur jantung...

2010-12-19T18:25:00.002+08:00

dup..
terhenti sebentar degupan jantung..
apabila tepon kesayangan bedebuk jatuh ke lantai..
mujur le ader 'baju' sebagai perisai...
kalau tak tentu berkecai...

aish..
fila.. sila hati2..
tak pasal2 merana nanti...

cik i'P, sila maafkan saya..
bukan sengaja..
kamu mungkin tergegar..
tapi perisai kamu kebal kan..
saya tahu kamu kuat..
bertabah la yer..
hohohoho...
*pasrah jek la kamu bila aku jadi tuanmu.. hahahahah*

pasrah jek la..

2010-12-15T21:13:00.003+08:00

aish... tak baik mengeluh cik fila..
oppssss.. kena isghtifar banyak2 ni..
tapi hidup ni bukan selalu aturannya seperti kehendak kita..
dan sesekali, keluhan itu akan keluar tanpa kita sedar..
nama pun manusia..

tapi kena akui..
dah memang silap aku ler..,
cuti lama2...
tapi tak hengat nak turunkan ilmu yg tak seberapa tuh kat crew...
hah hamek kamu...
tgh2 mlm pun AM tepon suh fax kerja...
aiyooo....
dier bukan kira aku ni baru seminggu naek keja ke apa..
oppssss sabar fila.. sabar ok...

nasib badan..
pasrah jek la...

nak iPhone for presie.. boleh??

2010-08-16T17:22:00.001+08:00

macbook sudah..
iPod pun sudah..
nak iPhone pulak boleh??
tp nak la di'sponsor'..
as a birthday presie maybe???
hurmm...

salam ramadhan...

2010-08-13T05:35:00.002+08:00

salam ramadhan..
untuk semua rakan-rakan...
3rd day baru berkesempatan..
untuk memberikan ucapan..

cewahh.. dah macam pantun pulak...
seriously... all the best..
semoga ramadhan tahun ini diberkati oleh-Nya..
sama-sama kita menghayati bulan mulia ni...

ohh.. it's just only the 3rd day..
and 'ramadhan bug' already here...
it's good for my diet regime...
but i hope it's good enough for meself to survive...

wonder whatever i mean by 'ramadhan bug'??
it's the amount i can consume during sahur...
and today's sahur only ate 3 spoon of rice..
should ate more..
it's the important meal to survive whole day fasting...
darn.. wish i had dates which i can eat..
7 pcs should be enough..
should bring to work later.. for stock keeping.. LOL
so that's it..

HAPPY FASTING EVERYBODY...

beware la bro..

2010-07-30T17:25:00.002+08:00

it's amazed me sometimes..
how can one person..
just forgot he/she pumping the fuel..

alrite.. the accident happened..
i know that..
it just playing in my mind..

1st they pumping..
put the nozzle in and wait..
in the meantime, maybe clean the mirror..
then somehow manage to drive off..
and pull the nozzle along..
and than we need to declare it an accident..

and it's really piss me off..
sometimes, that bloody person..
not even said sorry..
i felt like punching the face..
thank God today not the case..
the person said sorry n i accepted it..

haish..
another police report on the way..
bless...

waiting..

2010-07-05T02:21:00.000+08:00

waiting for the arrival....

tik tok...

tik tok...

tik tok..

apple.. not the one u eat...

2010-06-06T00:39:00.003+08:00

my my...
once u're human...
forever human..
and u won't satisfied with one thing u ever had...
u always want more...
and it's include me..
well.. i'm a bloody human yeah..

so.. after macdee... (he still be the one)
i've got my eyes on other apple stuff..
NO.. NO.. not the one u ate...
not granny smith.. or gala apple.. or whatever...
it's the apple stuff that start with 'i'...

i really want to have at least 2 out of 2...
hahahaha... wishful thinking...
one if really lucky...
if there's suddenly money fall down from the skies..
no problem then...
but, that's the myth create by crazy people...
other than u got it yourself..
or ask others to give it to u...

the iPod touch is the one i will try to have my hand on..
with my own money... Insya-Allah...
but if i ever lucky to have iPod nano or iPod shuffle??
probably not from me...
as an advance birthday presie???
anyone???
*flipping my not-so-long eyelashes*
well enough said...
*finger cross*

mak & ayah ; kalian guru sebenar..

2010-05-17T00:45:00.003+08:00

terlambat atau tdk..
selamat hari guru untuk ayah dan mak...
ucapan ini bukan kerana profesion,..
tetapi kalian adalah guru sebenar dlm kehidupan kami adik beradik..
kalian tidak lelah mengajar kami..
mendidik sepenuh hati...
memberitahu apa yg benar dan salah...
membelai dlm tegas dan kasih sayang..
mengajar kami erti TABAH...
menyediakan kami untuk pentas dunia...
yang tak akan tergagah tanpa kalian...

untuk itu, kami terhutang nyawa...
adek sayang kalian, ibu dan ayah adek...
sayang yang diharap membawa ke syurga..
ameen...

me = movie freak?? totally

2010-05-15T02:39:00.007+08:00

it's 2.40 am.. and i cannot sleep...
blame it to the coffee.. LOL
alrite.. alrite..
it's not a coffee fault..
i can sleep even just after i had a cup of coffee...
i'm just kinda excited...
i had my lone ranger time tonite...
what a bliss...

yeah yeah... lone ranger... who care???
i do... BIG TIME...
especially when i got to watch movie in my lone ranger slot..
ok.. i do love to have company...
to have my mum.. my cousin...
my friends.. my everyone...
but the lone ranger time is what i'm craving...

after a while...
i realize that movie is one way of my stress release..
*yes.. i got this some stress in some point in my life rite now*
*no big*
i try everything...
everything that i can imagine..
everything that people told me to do...
everyway to cool down my stress...
spiritual... mentally... name it..
no such luck...
and i had this nagging feeling...
keep asking myself to go n watch some movie..
walla... it's work..
i can feel my stress go down the notch...
and my head kinda clear...

so, is it make me a movie freak??
movie bitch???
whichever.... i don't care....
as long i'm happy..
n got approved from my mum...
*chill*

(^_^)\/

pst : i've watch ROBIN HOOD, Crowe version... like it very much...
no no... i'm not comparing with Costner verse...
it's unfair to compare...
they got different time n year in making..
they got totally different hero n heroin...
they got different story telling...
n got different everything...
but... what amazed me..
they still got me in same excitement...

love Costner verse... n in love with Crowe verse...

love in the air?? NOT

2010-05-11T17:00:00.007+08:00

love in the air?? NOT

i just had some conversation with my dak chomel..
as usual, she know how i'm feeling rite now...
she said, i'm in a sad mood..
lonely even..
it's not entirely true.. also not entirely wrong..

i do feel lonely...
but i already channel myself to better purpose...
to better things to do with my single life...
i just need time, money n faith... LOL
it will done.. insya-Allah.. if everything goes accordingly..

so.. back to the lonely feeling..
i'm almost 29...
wonder how i will get there??
no boyfriend.. no husband..
not even acquaintance...
but, i know.. maybe my times not arrive yet..
maybe 'the one' still riding the horse...
or stuck in jam..
or even got problem in the airport..
yeah yeah.. me n my pathetic imagination..
but whatever n whenever..
i still have faith..
that one day..
one sweet day..
i'll find 'the one'..

so.. what did make me still hold to that vision???
looking n waiting for 'the one'??
beside my late dad who i look up very highly....
it's my brothers..
they're definitely a good man..
a good n tentative husband...
and a great dad to their kids..

i know..
there's the time they gonna feel upside down..
the problem follow them everywhere...
but hey.. that's marriage.. n that's life...
even then,
they still getting strong with their loving family..
lovely wifey n cutest kids...
and i really hold on to them..
if they can manage the family life they're having now...
i'm sure there will be 'the one' for me...
that's how BIG my faith with my brothers...

i know no one is perfect...
but we can try to make the imperfect pretty perfect..
if there's a will, there's a way..

hopefully they will keep my faith in them..
keep the believe that i hold into them...
keep the respect that i only reserved for them...
be strong to their families...
to their wife n children..
coz, i tell u..
if they don't hold it strongly..
i'm afraid..
my believe to ever find 'the one'..
will vanish into thin air...
my respect for them will be gone..
NO..
i'm not joking..
i'm dead serious..
i love them too much to make it like a funny thing..

*************************************

just wanna say that i hate 'adamaya' now..
well i love the show back then..
now, i'm not even watching...
loath it with my whole life.. LOL

maya are so stupid...
got a lovely husband that is adam,
still want that damn x-boyfriend, dani..
no matter how u love that person..
u already have a great husband n cute kid..
what the hell that she thinking to get divorce and married to her x????

if i ever find the real person like maya in my life..
i gonna shoot her dead.. hahahahhaa
shoot her dead and stamp on her face..
dani was your x-boyfriend..
surely he doesn't meant for you...
that's why u married adam..
so.. get a life n move on..

just my two cents...

coincidence?? or just the way

2010-03-30T00:02:00.003+08:00

is it a bloody coincidence??
or just the way i said what i feel??
in my blog..

damn...
i'm not intended to write in my blog,
only when i'm feeling down.. (boring stuff yeah)
when my heart ache..
when i can't told people around me what i really felt...
no.. not my intention...
alas, still doing it..
coz it's the only way to let things go...

i'm sad... suck BIG TIME...
see the word BIG TIME???
yeah right...

about what?? i don't bloody know..
darn...
shoot me, why don't u people???
(so u don't have to put up with me n my stupid ranting n all)

hurmmm... a lot of stuff happened...
and the 'beautiful' thing bout it...
i didn't even realize..
or acknowledge..
or embrace it well..
or even pay attention..
or maybe...
it just me..
just the way i wanna it pass...

bloody hell...
i know it's never a coincidence...
that i will write when i'm feeling down..
i know now..
that's just the way...
to let me calm down...
before i explode...

scary.. so bloody scary...

2010-03-05T16:02:00.002+08:00

after working night shift..
i went back home for some rest..
had some lunch..
then taking few hours nap..

walla..
the scary thing happened..
i'm dreaming of my ex..
WT___??? please fill in the blank yerself.. LOL

damn..
it's really scary..
after like 10 years..
he just minding around in my dream just like that..

didn't said i hate him or anything..
bad thing happened..
in life.. in relationship..
i just don't want to be remind of him..
just that..
is it too much to ask??

please.. no more...
don't u ever dare to get into my dream again yeah..
ever..

Gave It All Away

2010-03-03T15:40:00.001+08:00

hi there..
i'm listening to Boyzone new single...
GAVE IT ALL AWAY..
tribute to their lovable friend..
Stephen Gately a.k.a Steo..

suddenly i miss Steo...
before Westlife came along..
before i gave my heart to Shane...
(just bear wif me.. huhuhu)
and became Westlife massive fan..
I am the Boyzone fan..
I am Steo big fan..
eventhough Shane came n stay in my heart since 11 years ago..
there's some space in my heart that always belong to Steo..
and to see his friend miss him.. really miss him..
bring out the tears that i meaning to keep..

so.. enjoy da vid..
R.I.P Steo..
we love ya...

*video cannot be up.. there's error while uploading*
*click da title @ line 3 for the vid*

congrats love...

2010-02-24T02:54:00.010+08:00

ho yea.. ho yea..

BIG CONGRATULATION to my love...
Westlife won Best Irish Pop Act for the 10th year in a row...
@ the annual Irish Meteor Music Awards...
congrats n congrats lads...
u did it again..

here some pict from the award ceremony..
credit to WESTLIFE.GR
*thanx a bunch sweatheart..*

lads with the award

looking good lads

girl can dream..

2010-02-19T21:11:00.007+08:00

how did u know if u fall for someone??

the butterflies fluttering around the stomach..?? check
stumbled over the words when see that person?? check
feel the rush of adrenaline through ya body?? check
feel all the blood rushing to ya face?? check
feel your palm sweat for no reason?? check
feet, root to the floor, unmoving?? check
the heartbeat pump so fast u likely pass out?? check
or blushing like mad, when u happened a glimpse of them??? check

well well.. i can list all the checking thing of how we felt when we fall in love..
surprise how i knew those list??
i'm not that daft.. i read.. those romantic novel huh.. *blushing*
but the thing is.. is that all u must felt??
or is it not love, if u don't feel the string pull on yer chest??
is it not normal, to call it love when u not even aware u feel like all the list up there???

it's been a while when I'm actually involve with anyone..
pushing myself in those game..
don't ambush me please..
after all it's my bloody opinion yeah..
after few times heart broken.. i always thought it's just a game.. kind of
coz most of the time.. u just get in and gamble..
look if you survive or fail..
happily ever after if u succeed..
felt like on the funeral when u heart broken..
so... maybe my thought can't be count..
but who cares huh.. *evil laugh*

but.. i also happened to know my heart..
hey,.. four by four, it's my heart we're talking about..
of course i must aware what it's feeling yeah..
stupid me to think otherwise..
(aucchhh.. i pinch my arm now.. to be that stupid.. hahaha)

enough... (no no.. i'm talking to myself.. still laughing)
let see.. i'm not that kind of girl who so romantica d'amour..
not for a while...
but i know i am before..
maybe i just get heartless after few times..
so didn't know exactly how to express myself much..
didn't exactly knew when my heart actually need to open up to someone..
because some people said..
i need to open up..
look at all those open door..
look out for any potential..
yet i can't see any..
not in front of me.. no..
or maybe... i didn't realize it..
that's why at the start of this entry..
i ask..
how u know if u fall for someone..
becoz.. the truth is..
i have no idea..

hurrmm.. a girl can dream yeah..
to finally met her Mr Right..
to finally embrace the feeling to be in love..
i want that feeling too..
but.. most important thing is...
i just want someone who i can be myself with..
someone who will love me for me..
who will understand me when i need my space..
someone who don't care if i snore.. (did i?? hahaha)
someone who will not freak out when i ate sundae chocolate n fries..
someone who doesn't care how i look when i woke up..
someone who still see me as beautiful as i am..
even if i just wear sweatpants n t-shirt..
(i know i'm not pretty or anything.. laugh all u want.. i don't bloody care)
the point is..
i just want someone who will be there..
as my friend.. bestfriend.. rival infact (in a good way)..
a lover n soulmate..
THE ONE
maybe u guys will said
"yeah yeah.. nobody that perfect.. she'll never find one"
and yet again..
a girl just can dream..

how i wish..

2010-02-14T16:16:00.001+08:00

i got this from someone..
Someone i knew..
but too far away....
whom i wish..
to be here.. wif me..
for real..
coz this text..
this dedication..
seem so sweet..
seem so real..
yet it's far from reality...

i was engulfed by the feeling of loneliness when i read this..
yet so thankful for the thought..

and i can't thank u enough...
u know who you're..
miss u much..

****************************************

If dreams were given to a lonely man
and a lonely man's dreams came true,
I'd force myself to sleep all the time
just so I could dream of you

If wishes were given to a lonely man
and I was given just two,
I'd wish for you to always love me
and the other I'd give to you

If my tears could write a love song
I'd write a love song for you,
It would explain just how I feel inside
and how much I love you too

But, dreams are only dreams
and wishes seldom come true,
My tears can't write a love song,
but when they fall, they fall for you

my love..

2010-02-11T23:26:00.005+08:00

new header in the house..

well.. it is a new header...
i just need a feeling to change something..
and after a mo..
the header actually on the way..

nothing fancy actually..
quite sometime me playing wif photoshop..
the only thing i love doing back then...
look like i'm getting old yeah.. hahahha

so.. new header wif my long love..
my God..
11 years wif this boys.. (almost 12 years...)
who actually turn to be a fine man..
and i thank 'dak Chomel' for that...
she is the one who actually call me to see the 1st vid clip ever...
and from that moment..
the year 1998 as i remembered..
stuck in front of the tv..
and they stuck in my heart forever...

anyone who know me..
actually knew me..
will know how much i love this boys...
this Westlife boys..
so.. it just right to conclude them in something i like...
to put them on my only blog..
to share them wif anyone who actually like them..
and i really don't care if no one like it..
i just do..

so.. for the last time..

my love header is here to stay...

daa...

quite sometimes..

2010-02-11T08:15:00.003+08:00

oh my God..
sangat lama tidak update blog...
rasanya mcm dah bersawang segala mcm...

well... what can i do..
life kinda hectic at the mo...
with CNY around the corner...
with crew being sick one by one..
aiyoo..
i also gonna be sick..

busy.. busy.. busy...
the quote kinda blend wif me somehow...
some of my friend felt neglected..
i'm so sorry dear...
u know who u're..
i'll find time yeah..
we will get together...
have some drink..
do a lot of chit chat...
we will...
just bear wif me for sometimes...

i really miss doing all the stuff when i'm study..
even at the start of my 'career'...
back then..
i kind of have all the time in the world..
i didn't say that i don't like my job now..
i like it.. love it...
it does gave me something to do...
something to look forward to..
to actually forgot what i don't have..
or don't belong...
but..
for having time to sit back.. n chill..
i miss that feeling...

well... that's all for now..
for u guys who wondering if i'm still exist in this world...
i am still here...

until later..

berlagak mcm bagus..

2009-11-18T23:02:00.003+08:00

mlm neh geram lagik..
aku rasa nak tumbuk jek manusia yg berlagak bagus neh..

mlm ni ada satu kes..
minyak tumpah...
aku tak tau la mcm mana dier isi
sebab aku dah buat pump test.. 120% OK...
bila dah tumpah tuh...
dier insist nak jumpa manager bertugas..
aku la tuh...
aku pun tinggal kan keja kat opis g jumpa cust..
tau2 aku yg dgn hormat takzim bertanya hal, kena marah..
aku mintak maaf walau salah dier pun, kena marah..
ayat dier reply..
"maaf.. maaf.. balik2 maaf.. saya ada dua stesen la kat KL"

LIKE HELL!!!
WOI.. ingat ko org KL..
ada dua stesen minyak..
aku peduli??
SGT TIDAK PEDULI OK!!!!

kalau perangai that LOW..
takde adab sopan..
berlagak nak mampus..
lebih baek anjing kurap yg kat tepi jln tu la...
jijik betul manusia mcm neh...

kalau tak kerana aku nak jaga nama baek Fuad Ent..
dan tak nak kecohkan keadaan Skudai RSA neh..
memang dah kena debik ngan aku.. grrrrrr
memang berterabur gigi dier aku kerjakan..
memang aku abeskan muka yg kunun hensem tuh...

so.. kepada manusia2 kat luar sana..
tolong la..
kalau ko ader 10 stesen minyak ke...
atau duit berjuta sekali pun....
sila ingat..
takde sapa peduli kalau perangai mcm "shial"..
org akan pandang ko mcm sampah lagik ader la..
rasa nak pijak2 jek..
worthless.. tak berharga..
not even as a human being...

dan aku doakan...
keta org yg berlagak tuh...
kalau tak terbakar pun..
paling "koman" pun tersadai la tepi jalan..

aish.. org2 neh..
suka sgt nak mess wif me..
takpe..
Allah tu maha ADIL..
ko tunggu jek la pembalasan...

thanx Along.. muaahhh

2009-11-18T03:53:00.002+08:00

nengok la gambo tuh..
aku dapat bunga dari Along...
alahai..
sgt terubat ok hati yg kecewa..
abg aku masih sayang kat aku..
well.. aku tau, Along memang sayang aku..
infact semua abang pun sayang aku..
cuma mungkin yg dua lagik tuh..
ingat aku dah besar..
dan tak perlu perhatian..

hello.. maybe i'm a BIG GIRL..
but i'm still you guys punya little sista OK!!
so.. sila manjakan adek kalian neh..
hihihih...

pepe pun..
aku memang sgt terharu bila dapat bunga neh..

alahai...
kalau saja aku jumpa lelaki sebaik arwah ayah @ along...
atau abang2 aku yg laen..
mudah-mudahan...

aku masih di sini...

2009-11-16T20:48:00.004+08:00

dah dua bulan aku tak mencoretkan apa2..
ada yg ditulis, tersimpan rapi dlm draft..
tp mlm neh aku rasa ingin menulis kembali..
maaf kalau kalian kecewa dgn coretan aku..
yg kebanyakan masa hanya luahan rasa..
memperlihatkan aku kecewa...

aku punya keluarga..
punya ramai saudara..
punya geng yg boleh aku kongsi apa sahaja..
punya teman yg mungkin memahami..
tp aku rasa...
blog ini sahaja yg boleh aku luahkan isi hati..
yg kadang2 tak sanggup nak lemparkan pada mereka...

dua bulan kebelakangan ini..
mcm2 hal berlaku..
aku dan abg2 dah tak sebulu...
aku tau puncanya..
mungkin mereka akan anggap, aku puncanya..
sebab aku tak bisa nak terima teman yg mereka agungkan..
aku tak boleh bicara dgn teman yg merosakkan hubungan kami adik beradik..
dan kerana tidak menerima kehadiran teman abg2 aku tuh..
aku seperti disishkan..
mereka tidak menjauhkan diri
tapi aku terasa sendiri...

along ada tegur..
jgn sesekali libatkan ayah dlm kehidupan kini..
ayah sudah tenang di sana..
tapi..
aku tidak tegar.. tidak bisa..
kerana kalau ayah masih di sini...
aku akan dipenuhi kasih sayang..
bukan aku tidak dapat kasih sayang..
tapi sedikit kekurangan..
kalau ayah masih di sini..
aku pasti dimanjakan..
abg2 pasti sayang aku...
bukan memperlakukan aku seperti aku tidak wujud..

mlm ini aku benar2 terasa..
aku anggap PMS penyebabnya..
moody tiba2.. menangis tidak kira masa...
dgn along, aku terlepas kata2..
"MAAFKAN ADEK, ALONG..."

mlm ini aku berjanji..
hanya melakukan kerja yg diberi..
tidak akan meluahkan apa yg ada dihati..
kerana ianya hanya akan mengeruhkan situasi...
dan semoga aku terus kuat meniti hati..
jika tidak, satu hari nanti..
AKU AKAN LARI..
waktu itu, tiada siapa yg akan dapat cari..

sebagai tanda ingatan

2009-09-11T15:23:00.002+08:00

- entri neh takde kena mengena pun ngan sesapa.. -

aku saje jek nak mark tarikh bakal aku tulis...
sebagai tanda ingatan...
dimana aku telah berjaya membuat sesuatu dlm hidup..
ader cakap tindakaan aku tu 'daring'..
yer la kot.. memang 'daring' nyah...
but ramai yg kata what i did is so WISE..

10 sept 09..
aku dgn 'daring' nya telah luahkan perasaan kepada "kamu"..
dan pada tarikh yg sama juga.. aku let him go...
perit?? not even close..
rasa nak mati ader la..
lagi ler bila dier kata aku campurkan emosi ngan kerja..
fine.. mungkin salah aku,...
but we never knew when love hit us rite..
nama pun cinta itu buta...

but that's da beauty of letting someone u love so much..
kesakitan dalam kelegaan

sebab selama neh aku kata aku dah let him go..
tp tak pernah luahkan..
tak pernah terima kenyataan..
dan buat aku sentiasa down...
tp bila dah luahkan..
dah bgtau secara terus yg aku lepaskan dier..
zasss.... mcm kena panah petir..
so bloody hurt...
hati rasa kosong...
tapi aku rasa tenang...

bikin aku mau jd happy girl..
not gonna moping around..
coz that's just waste of time...

once more, "kamu"..
i let u go.. for good..
GOODBYE..

acik n kak jun's baby gal...

2009-09-03T15:03:00.006+08:00

2nd September 2009..
another nephew were born...
happy happy n happy...

syukran..

and today 3rd Sept 09..

happy 2nd besday to Iliya Maisarah..

mak su love both of u..
scratch that...
MAK SU LOVE ALL OF YOU...
muaahhhhh

hadirlah tenang...

2009-08-30T03:04:00.002+08:00

tetiba aku rindu saat di cruise...
rindu perasaan 'carefree'..
rindu rasa untuk berehat..
rehat tanpa perlu fikir hal duniawi....
hal dunia yg meruntun perhatian...
rindu untuk berada di tengah lautan..
tenang...

sesungguhnya...
daratan ini tidak menjanjikan ketenangan...
kerana setakat ini tidak ada istilah tenang dlm hidup...
mungkin bila diri telah ditelan tanah..
baru itu lah ketenangan hakiki...

ramadhan ini ku mohon agar ketenangan menjenguk..
tapi mungkin Allah masih mahu menguji..
mahu melihat betapa aku kuat..
mahu memberi kelebihan ganjaran..
ganjaran kemenangan kepada mereka yg sabar..

tetapi aku hanya insan biasa..
moga sabar itu tidak akan pernah pergi tinggalkan aku..
tidak akan pernah jemu untuk menunggu..
sebagai mana aku menunggu keajaiban..
hadirnya ketenangan dlm diri..
dan semoga diri ini sentiasa diberkati..

aminn....

ramadhan ini..

2009-08-22T16:57:00.002+08:00

salam teman dan sahabat..
yg tak kenal pun, salam untuk kalian..

just simple update..
nak wish kepada semua..
selamat ber'RAMADHAN'..
perbanyakkan amalan di bulan mulia ini..
nikmati sepenuhnya hingga hari kemenangan..
semoga segala amalan diterima oleh-NYA..

dan bagi aku....
sedih kerana ini ramadhan ke-7 tanpa ayah..
al-fatihah..
tetapi aku tahu beliau gembira waktu ini..
pulang la ayah jenguk anakmu ini..
walau begitu..
tetap gembira diberi peluang bertemu ramadhan..
selepas menginjak usia 28 tahun pd minggu lepas..
dan berpeluang menyambutnya bersama keluarga terchenta...

syukran...

meteor?? wish granted???

2009-08-13T09:29:00.002+08:00

aku terbaca satu artikel pasal hujan meteor...
[ kat sinih ]

aish...
benar ke ujan meteor tuh betul2 boleh kiter nampak ngan mata kasar??
benar ke pasal mitos ujan meteor..
bagus kan kalau boleh granted wish yg kita buat..

alahai..
tu semua metafora org asing saja..
mana ada benda yg boleh granted wish selain Allah..
kalau ada..
tentu dah manyak benda yg kita mau akan kita dapat..
tentu bahagia rasa hidup..

sebab setakat hari ini..
apa yg aku minta tak pernah dapat like i imagine..
mungkin aku tak perlukannya..
sebab tuh aku tak dapat...
dan Allah lebih tau apa keperluan aku...
tapi aku kena redha..
kena lebih kuat berdoa..
mudah-mudahan..
bila tiba waktunya..
aku akan dapat yg terbaek sahaja..
ameen....

rindu pemberi pen..

2009-08-08T00:46:00.003+08:00

malam neh aku melayan hati...
yg sekejap2 betul...
yg sekejap2 terasa sengalnya..
dah hati sendiri..
layankan jek la...

aku dok bongkar segala hadiah besday..
yg aku terima tahun lepas...
sebab hari untuk tahun neh hampir tiba...
mengamit memori la kununnya..
huahahaha...

dlm dok belek satu2 hadiah...
aku terhenti bila belek pen dlm gambo tuh..
tetiba rasa rindu yg teramat kat si pemberi...
alahai....

awak...
sy nak bgtau neh..
saya RINDU awak...

kenapa??

2009-07-28T22:00:00.003+08:00

kenapa??
kamu tidak hilang lagi dari hati ini??

kenapa??
terkadang, aku masih rindukan kamu...

kenapa?
bayang mu masih tetap ku lihat??

kenapa??
hati ini tidak pernah betah membenci kamu..

kenapa??
aku tetap sayang kamu..
walau aku tahu kamu sudah dimiliki..

kenapa???

dak chumel's wedding

2009-07-20T11:56:00.019+08:00

salamz kengkawan...

wah lama tul tak jenguk blog..
blog hopping tidak..
blog sendiri lagik la tak sentuh..

bz sgt agaknya aku neh ek..
kalah PM yg termaktub bz..
alahai..
nak wat cam ner...

ok ok..
enough bout me..
that's continue for another time..
neh aku nak update gambo kawen..
dak chumel a.k.a anak sepupu aku..
yg kononnya aku jadi pengapit tuh..

enjoy da pix...

da BIG day..

2009-07-04T20:14:00.005+08:00

esok 5 julai 09..
hari paling penting dlm hidup seseorang dlm keluarga kami...
ira a.k.a dak chumel akan melangsungkan perkahwinan...

TAHNIAH DRPD KAMI SEKELUARGA...

semoga semuanya akan berjalan lancar..
ameen..

psstt.. mahu siapkan sirih junjung dan hantaran.. hehehe...

i just wanna -...

2009-07-01T23:58:00.003+08:00

HEARTBREAK!!!!

i thought this will be da last time..

but no.. NO!!

Allah don't want this to be my last..

HE's so generous....

gave me this pain all over again..

and again..

and again...

so at this moment..

i'm HEARTBREAK..

BIG TIME...

.
.
.
.

i just wanna die..

semoga cepat ok...

2009-06-28T14:36:00.003+08:00

kamu kata kamu punya problem..
apa masalahnya pun saya tidak tahu..
kamu hanya membisu..
kamu hanya kata..
"ada prob la wak, nanti sy da ok, sy cntct awk"

and i TRUST u to contact me..

just hope, it's not taking too long..
coz i'm starting to miss u...
miss our banter n all..
and as a friend,..
i hope u can settle everything wif flying colours..

semoga semuanya dipermudahkan untuk kamu ya..

and i'm here if u ever need my help..
maybe u will not need it..
BUT i'm here..
going nowhere..

take care TUN.. miss ya much..

MJ has gone..

2009-06-26T07:28:00.002+08:00

Micheal Jackson has died..
the king of POP has gone..
my Godness..
the news felt like the bucket of ice..
make me freeze for a while..
just like when i heard bout Lady D and Heath Ledger..

with all the controversy..
with everything happened few years back..
the down turn n all..
he still a LEGEND..
forever..

RIP MJ...

hari bapa... rindu ayah...

2009-06-22T01:11:00.004+08:00

td pergi pusara..
terasa sgt tenang bila dapat ziarah pusara ayah..
tetap cantik dan berseri..
tetap lapang dan teguh..
walau hanya menggunakan kayu..
sebagai kepuk dan nisan...

ramai kelihatan di pusara..
kebanyakan mereka menziarahi pusara si bapa..
seperti ada hari kebesaran disini..
walau tidak meriah seperti hari raya...
sudah cukup meriah hanya untuk hari bapa...
alhamdulillah..
anak2 masih ingat...
walaupun bapa mereka sudah lama tiada..

dan aku terasa sgt gembira bila dapat duduk disisi pusara..
terasa dekat benar dgn ayah..
macam2 aku bualkan dgn ayah..
macam2 yg aku adukan..
ayah pasti dengar..
ayah pasti tersenyum dgn bebelan aku...
hari ini tidak setitis pun air mata jatuh tatkala aku dipusara..
kerana aku pasti dgn rasa gembiranya..
walaupun ayah tiada..
kasih sayang beliau tetap utuh untuk aku..
untuk emak..
untuk kami adik beradik..

dan hari ini seperti ada satu kuasa menyelinap masuk..
satu kuasa yg halus untuk aku jd lebih kuat..
kuasa kasih sayang yg utuh..
untuk aku juangkan supaya jd anak yg membanggakan..

ayah..
adek rindu sangat kat ayah..
tp ayah jgn bimbang..
adek dah semakin kuat...
selain ayah.. ramai yg sayangkan adek..
and i'm not alone..
especially when i have yer love for whole my life..

al-fatihah untuk ayah..
love u very much ayah...

bertabahlah hati..

2009-06-13T15:00:00.002+08:00

hati..

kamu harus kuat..

bukan dia milik kamu...

mungkin hadirnya untuk teman sahaja..

bukan untuk dimiliki..

bukan untuk dicintai...

aku sokong kamu..

menangislah jika itu mahumu...

berdiamlah jika itu perlumu...

apa yang penting..

bertabahlah hati..

pengsan

2009-06-05T12:45:00.002+08:00

mau pengsan...
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yg mana satu???

2009-05-30T23:53:00.000+08:00

hi peeps..
lama tul tak update blog..
idea ada..
malah ada tag yg aku perlu jawab..
masa jek yg sgt cemburu ngan aku...
serta ditimpa rasa sedikit malas...
sebab penat sgt...

dlm keboringan buat keja yg mcm tak abes2 neh..
aku curi masa..
post gambo neh,...
saje nak tanya pendapat..
yg mana satu ek??
agak ok untuk aku potretkan..
sebab angah dah janji nak lukiskan satu..
as a presie..

tapi gambo yg last neh..
aku nak jdkan gambo wajib potret..
sebab gambo bersama mak neh..
penuh dan sarat ngan memori...
yg sampai bila2 pun...
aku tak pernah penat nak kenang..

jaga hati : oh TIDAK!!!

2009-05-22T21:38:00.003+08:00

entri neh hanya untuk luahan perasaan jek..
sebab aku tgh rasa hangin sangat..
mungkin lepas korang baca entri neh...
korang akan kata aku bukan pemberi service yg baek..
pedulik..
kerana kes ini..
untuk menjaga hati = OH SGT TIDAK!!!

korang bayangkan..
aku baru jek dlm keadaan yg nak sembuh dr demam..
jd feeling tuh memang tak baper nak full alert la..
bahkan..
nak layan pelanggan pun mcm nak tak nak jek..
tp dah keja..
layan kan jugak la..

tp yg tak tahan tuh...
padahal dah ader signboard..
lagik la dlm tandas pompuan...
depa boleh dok isap rokok..
adoiii....
mau terbatuk-batuk aku yg memang sedia 'semput' neh...

kalau lelaki..
(walau hakikat nya tak elok merokok)
tapi aku masih boleh terima..
dah lumrah mereka..
aku masih boleh panggil mereka macho..
mereka yg merokok itu ada ketika sexy..
TETAPI..
kalau yg merokok itu pompuan..
bertudung bagai..
pelajar (nengok bas mcm IKBN)..
HUDUH tau tak...

neh kes kedua..
tp ari neh aku lebih berani..
aku amek penyembur glade..
sembur kat bahagian atas bilik air cacat..
sampai depa keluar..
bukan sorang..
tetapi bertiga..
paling best..
bila depa bising2..
buat muka..
aku dgn selamba..
amek cawan yg dibasuh dan keluar..
YESS puas ati aku...hahahah

kenangan itu memori...

2009-05-19T00:30:00.000+08:00

memori itu kenangan..
kenangan itu pulak memori..
yg kalian simpan dalam kotak fikiran..
yg aku kekalkan dalam telap minda..
tak kira la memori yg berasaskan suka atau duka..
setiap satu punya value yg tak boleh ditukar ganti...

dan bagi aku...
aku suka memilih memori indah..
memori kekeluargaan..
memori bersama teman..
kerana memori memori itu pemangkin kebahagiaan..
tatkala aku kesunyian..

bukan la bererti aku tidak acknowledge memori yg pahit tuh..
itu pengalaman hidup ok..
cuma ada ketika..
memori hitam itu hanya kita biaskan untuk pengajaran..
sekadar untuk renungan..
tetapi bukan untuk didodoikan...
kerana kebanyakan memori itu tidak membahagiakan..
tetapi menyenakkan...

apa-apa keadaan pun..
hargai lah memori dan kenangan anda..
kerana tanpa memori..
anda seperti robot yang kosong...
hidup tanpa arah dan kenangan...
kosong.. tau apa itu kosong???

sila la fikir sendiri ya..

arwah ayah da best chegu dlm hidup sy..

2009-05-18T13:46:00.001+08:00

this one i wrote in my notes @ facebook..
just want to share it with ya...
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saya amat bertuah.. punya ayah seorang cikgu...

ok ok.. kalau beliau bukan cikgu,
beliau tetap ayah teristimewa di dunia saya...
dan dihati saya...
tapi sempena hari ini (16 may 09) adalah hari guru... jadi saya nak kongsi kenapa beliau guru terbaek yg pernah hadir dan bertakhta dalam hidup saya...

1 - arwah ayah sgt tegas.. di sekolah juga di rumah.. tapi beliau ayah yang paling penyayang.. serta ayah yg paling memanjakan anak (saya la anak yg dimanjakan itu.. owh sgt heaven.. huhuhu) serta cikgu yang paling cool kat skolah.. (tu anak2 murid beliau yg cakap.. bila saya menyibuk-nyibuk ikut arwah ke skolah.. huhuhu)

2 - beliau guru Bahasa Melayu yang sgt kritis dan kreatif.. beliau juga penulis beberapa skrip pementasan teater skolah.. ada juga buku yg ditulis untuk terbitan.. sangat minat menulis sajak2 puitis.. arwah juga pemeriksa karangan saya sebelum saya hantar kepada guru BM.. huhuhuhu..

3 - beliau guru teater yg hebat (tak kira la kalau kalian katakan saya 'bias'.. pedulik...).. beliau sangat aktif berteater, waktu muda, beliau gemar berlakon teater skolah bersama rakan guru beliau (uncle dzul - ayah abg brian).. sewaktu beliau masih muda & kuat, sebelum diberi sakit oleh Allah.. kemudian sempat juga saya melihat beliau melatih anak2 didik beliau.. bila usia menganjak, beliau lebih senang menjadi juri sahaja.. dan saya akan pastikan diri mengikut beliau...

4 - arwah ayah saya pandai menyanyi.. waktu muda2 beliau punya kugiran.. huhuhuh.. sukakan lagu2 lama.. boney M, arwah P.Ramlee.. dan beliau wajib dodoikan saya lagu 'tidurlah permaisuri' setiap malam sehingga la usia saya belasan tahun.. yer saya memang terlalu manja dgn beliau.. itu semua tinggal kenangan...
(rindu mahu dgr beliau nyanyikan lagu SEROJA time besday saya..)

sebenarnya sgt banyak kalau nak ditulis.. tak terhurai di sini.. tapi no 5 adalah perkara yg sgt penting...

5 - arwah ayah pengajar dalam setiap hal kehidupan kami adik beradik.. terutama saya anak bongsu beliau.. dari mengenal huruf, membaca al-Quran, berteman, driving, memasak, bertukang dan sebagainya.. beliau membuktikan kasih sayang ibu bapa terhadap anak-anak tiada galang gantinya.. kerana berpuluh tahun beliau menanggung sakit, bertahan semata-mata mahu membesarkan kami semua.. sampaikan kakak sepupu memohon saya melepaskan beliau pada hari terakhir beliau di dunia, dgn alasan sudah 20 tahun arwah menanggung sakit hanya kerana mahu melihat saya mencecah umur boleh berdikari.. dan saya redha melepaskan beliau beristirehat di alam yg satu lagi...

setiap teguran, nasihat, gurau senda, memori dan cinta sayang beliau menjadi pengubat rindu... doa beliau juga akan sentiasa mengirigi kami sekeluarga.. itu saya pasti...

dan saya pasti.. anak2 didik beliau juga pasti merindui beliau.. seperti mana saya rindukan beliau, jika pun tidak lebih rindunya drpd saya..

untuk itu.. SELAMAT HARI GURU ayah..

adek sayang ayah... semadilah dgn aman... al-fatihah

selamat hari guru...

2009-05-16T00:05:00.002+08:00

courtesy of

untuk allahyarham SAPARMAN BAKRI...
da best dad n teacher i ever had..
al-fatihah untuk ayah..
adek sayang n rindu teramat kat ayah..
doakan adek ya ayah..
"everyday i love you"

kata-katamu..
nasihatmu..
tegurmu..
tegasmu...
semua untuk kebaikan kami anak-anakmu....
akan ku ingat selamanya..
sesungguhnya ayah terbaik dimata kami..
terutama dihati kami...
teristimewa dalam hidup kami..
ayah dan emak..
jasa kalian mendidik kami..
segunung emas pun tidak mampu membalasnya..
kasih terpatri..
kekal sehingga titisan hayat terakhir kami...
hanya doa untuk kalian dari kami...
adek sayang kalian..

kpd semua chegu2.. bakal chegu.. bekas chegu..
terima kasih.. arigato..

tag from damme..

2009-05-15T21:30:00.003+08:00

ampun la kalian yg nge'tag' aku ya..
aku sgt la bz kebelakangan neh..
nak menjenguk ke rumah kalian pun tak berape nak sempat..
apatah lagik nak update blog sendiri..
mimpi sahaja gamaknya..

kepada damme damiah...
nie tag yg kamu bg kat sis ya..
maap ler lambat buat..
bz lagik..
nak belajar print screen lagik..
agak pelik ok mau print screen d macdee neh..
huhuhuh

tapi ini la hasilnya..

napa suka wallpaper neh??
1 - gambo neh menampakkan kami (aku n kazen) sgt chumel..
(owh kami memang suka perasan.. hehehe..)

2 - gambo neh menampakkan kami sgt serasi..
(boleh dikatakan, dimana ada aku memang akan selalunya ada si kazen neh)

3 - ini paling utama;
kerana gambo ini gambo yg decent..
beri peluang untuk aku buat tag ini dgn jujur..
kalau la aku baca tag sebelum tukar wallpapaer...
memang ampun aku tak akan jawab tag damme..
(sebab damme kater mesti jujur.. tak leh tukar2 kan...)
huhuhuh...
ianya kerana wallpaper sebelum ini sgt tidak boleh blah...
gambo sebelum adalah gambo jejaka desktop..
[aku ada mention dlm n3 neh]
siapa dia?? biarlah rahsia.. hahahha

tag 10 orang ;
yg neh pun aku tak nak tag sesapa..
siapa nak kongsi wallpaper dipersilakan...

open relationship???

2009-05-12T20:30:00.000+08:00

si teruna punya dara..
si ghades punya jejaka..
si suami punya isteri..
si wifey punya hubby....

tapi mereka mereka itu punya someone dibelakang pasangan...
mungkin teman..
mungkin kekasih..
atau mungkin "acquaintance"

mereka mengatakan ianya hanya "open relationship"..

tetapi sejauh manakah "open relationship"???

dan apa sebenarnya maksud "open relationship" itu sendiri???

bak kata nabil...
"lu pk la sendiri"

tp fila kompem tak ngerti..
so tak leh nak pk sendiri..
kalian punya idea???
apa itu "open relationship"??

tag dr zajumie...

2009-05-12T09:00:00.000+08:00

neh tag dr cik zajumie..
berkurun dah dier tag..
baru la ni dapat nak jawab...
atas sebab kesibukan ok..

so lets get jiggy with it...

1. Nyatakan usia blog anda..
n3 pertama tahun 31st dec 2007.. kamu kira sendiri la yer.. huhuhu

2. terangkan kenapa anda ber'blog'ing..
perlu ada sebab ker?? just want to share da thot.. ok tak jawapan??? ngeee

3. nyatakan blog pertama yg anda baca (kalau masih ingat)..
tak dapat nak nyatakan.. short term memory lost.. har har har

4. letakkan n3 pertama dlm blog anda..
sila baca [ di sini ]

5. huraikan n3 tersebut..
lihat jawapan 4.. huhuhu

6. letakkan satu pict yg anda paling suka dlm blog anda..
aku tak moh letak satu.. sebab sgt banyak yg aku suka.. so aku nak letak 3..

7. harapan anda..
dapat hidup dlm keadaan dirahmati Allah bersama ibu n keluarga terchenta...

8. tag sesiapa..
tak mau la.. kalau kalian nak jawab dipersilakan.. it's open invitation.. huhuhu

shutdown...

2009-05-07T21:10:00.003+08:00

so bloody tired..
today is Thursday..
yet i felt like it is Friday..
you do da math..

going to shutdown myself..
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cepat sihat ya...

2009-05-06T22:13:00.003+08:00

emak kurang sihat..
kamu pun kurang sihat jugak..
adakah kerana kamu berkongsi tarikh besday yg sama??
walau jarak tahun yg amat berbeza??

tak kisah la kan..
yg penting kedua-dua kamu cepat sihat ya..
emak beransur ok.. alhamdulillah..
dan td pula..
kamu kata sudah 95% sihat kan??
alhamdulillah jugak..

lagik 5% tuh insya-Allah hilang la tuh..
tak banyak dah...
tak sampai 10% pun...

mcm emak..
walau belum 100% tapi hati ini sudah rasa lega..
mak dah mula nak makan..
dan boleh bergurau senda..

semoga kalian cepat sembuh..
dan sentiasa diberikan kesihatan dan kegembiraan...

sayang kalian berdua..
muahhh...

mood.. mana pergi???

2009-05-04T22:17:00.003+08:00

mood..
mana kamu pergi??
tinggalkan aku sendiri..
kamu kejam laa...
benci...

haih...
bukan la nak mengeluh..
cuma beberapa hari ini mood seperti merajuk..
menghilng entah ke mana..

mungkin hati terlalu risaukan ibu yg kurang sihat,...
(alhamdulillah sudah beransur pulih)..
(adek sentiasa doakan emak sihat dan gembira)..

mungkin hati terlalu rindukan si dia..
(sudah sudah ler)..
(sila insap ok.. dia mungkin tidak rindukan kamu)...

mungkin juga mood dan hati berkomplot..
saja mahu menguji aku...
suka suki mahu melihat aku terseksa..

mood..
sila la kembali..
cepat datang sebelum aku yg merajuk..
nanti kamu juga yg susah nak pujuk2..

berkencan wif yana dearie....

2009-05-01T23:20:00.015+08:00

semalam.. 30 april 2009..
aku berkencan bersama yana (princess liyana)..
ala-ala celebrate tamat pengajian..
serta selesai peksa n PSM bagai...
walaupun hanya kami berdua...
kemeriahan tetap ada..
we had fun yeah.. kan yana???

long story short...
kami g nengok Wolverin..
[yg memang best tahap dewa.. at least that's what i felt]...
then before that..
menjamah donut JCo...
[sebab punya waktu hampir 30 minit sebelum tayangan]..
serta operasi mengenyangkan perut di "benafee"..
after kami menghabiskan tenaga; sgt fokus nengok wayang ok...
[pecel lele kat benafee way better than LC.. no offence..]
hahahha..

so.. aku rasa..
cerita manyak pun tak perlu...
sila la enjoy gambo2 yg sempat aku n yana snap..

we'll do it next time ya dear..
sayang kamu.. muah muah...

puas?? kami puas.. huhuhuh...
until later yea...
daa...

shahril n ika's baby..

2009-04-29T01:05:00.000+08:00

update update..

actually i had a few story of my own..
but i just don't feel da beat to write it..

so let just have some update of other person yeah..

here's da update of my friend's baby..
thy name of the proud parents are shahril n ika..
n da cute little princess is...
SYAFI AMANI binti SHAHRIL..

and here da pict of her..
enjoy..

terharu n ini aku,...

2009-04-26T23:18:00.002+08:00

terima kasih di atas ucapan takziah kalian..
semoga aku terus kuat menghadapi hidup yg terlalu mencabar ini..
aku benar-benar terharu...

maaf ya kalian..
tiada update yg panjang...
sudah tiga hari aku tiada mood..
bermula malam selepas pulang dari ziarah...
setiap kali masuk waktu maghrib..
badan akan lemah n rasa demam teramat...
kepala berat mcm nak pecah..
nak berfikir pun tak mampu..
tapi kerja harus diteruskan..
yang hairannya..
pagi hingga sebelum maghrib,..
cergas dan tiada sakit demam bagai..
hurmmm...
mungkin gangguan emosi kot..
tapi tidak la pulak..
ntah la...

doakan aku cepat sembuh..
tak larat la bila sakit waktu malam jek neh...
sengsorang di tempat kerja..
emak di rumah..
kalau aku juga dirumah..
bolah la mengadu dgn ibu terchenta..
adoii...