women n smoking...

bloody hell..
i hate those women..
make me all smell like cigar...
smoking n puff da smoke towards me...
arghhhh..
hate it... hate it...
hate it..

a women.. smoking??
eewwwwuuu...
ok ok...
my bad...
sukati diaorang la kan...
paru-paru masing-masing...
tapi sekurang-kurangnya...
kalau nak merokok pun..
nengok la tempat dan kawasan..
dan jgn la nak hembus kat muka org....

memang slack la td..
kalau mampu nak tahan berqada' hajat...
kompem tak masuk toilet...
toilet yg wangi dan dihias cantik..
jadi berkabus dgn asap yg berkepul-kepul...

come on la..
u all pompuan..
harap muka jek cantik...
asap yg kuar dr mulut...
mcm corong keretapi...
mcm mulut naga pun ader jugak...

kalau lelaki tu...
ada kala smoking nak nampak macho..
yg pompuan ni.. smoking...
nak nampak aper kak oi...

end of hectic day..

it's the end..
end of hectic day..
wanna go home n sleep..
sleep all nite...
and wanna find someone to give me massage..
anyone?? voluntere?? huhuhu..

pening...

kepala ini bagai mahu pecah..
sakit..
mahu saja diambil tukul dan dipukul..
biar hilang kabut pandangan..
biar jelas pemandangan..

bahana menangis..
begitu la jadinya...
mahu ditidurkan...
segar terasa..
kerana...
airmata peneman setia...

pening dicari diri sendiri..
mencari jawapan tiada henti..
berfikir dan meneliti..
segala informasi...

yang mana perlu diikuti??
yang mana perlu dipercayai???
Tuhanku..
bukakanlah.. ijabmu.. aminn

dia sudah dimiliki...

aku kecewa..
sedih.. hiba..
kerana sesungguhnya...
aku baru mengetahui..
selama ini...
dia sudah dimiliki...
tanpa kusedari..
hanya berselindung di sebalik lensa...

biarkan ku titip ucapan..
jutaan kasih memberi rasa..
rasa gembira walau cuma seketika...
andaiku tahu...
ku hanya pelepasmu...
tidak akan ku benarkan..
hati ini menyayangimu..
menyukai dirimu..
apatah lagi mencintaimu...

kerana..
kini.. sesudah hati ini kuhidangkan..
hancur berdebu berterbangan..
mengekor angin yg lalu...
tanpa dapat dikejar..
tanpa dapat dicantum kembali..

pesanku..
pada hatiku..
lupakan dia..
kerana..
dia bukan untukmu..
bukan milikmu..
dia hanya..
bayang-bayang...
yang tidak pernah akan dapat digarap..
dipegang..
disimpan..
dan dimiliki..
kerana..
ia hanya sisipan..
yang akan hilang..
bila ada yg menghalang...

mengerti la hati..
jgn bersedih..
kerana..
ada yg lebih hebat menantimu..
selain dia...
percayalah...

'pos' merajuk...

huhu.. bukan pos Malaysia yg merajuk tau..
tapi 'Point of Sale' kat stesen ni yg bual hal..
mungkin terlalu penat..
asyik ditekan tak berhenti-henti..
24 jam 7 hari seminggu..
365 hari setahun..
366 hari pada tahun lompat..
ditekan.. dibuka.. ditutup..
memang letih..
kalau boleh menjerit..
tentu dah meraung-raung...

ari ni... ada 3 cashier..
kekadang menyibok la bila tgh ramai..
membantu la katakan..
tetiba..
tgh dok reramai manusia membanjiri stesen..
boleh 'hang' pulak...
adik² cashier dah pening..
org yg supervise ni; double pening...

nasib ler tak baper panik..
ntah aper yg ditekan..
alhamdulillah elok semula..

rasanya..
ari ni bukan pos jek yg merajuk..
ader gak manusia-manusia yg merajuk..
minta maaf jek la yer..
kekadang tindakan tu dibuat dulu...
sebelum sempat berfikir..
nama pun manusia..

wedding n wedding everywhere...

help me.. help me..

huhuhu.. don't worry.. nothing bad happen..
saje jek buat gimik..
gimik pening kepala..
pening nak pilih..
wedding mana perlu hadir..

7 wedding in a month..
can u believe it?
7 wedding to attend..
my Godness..

breath in.. breath out..
3 wedding in a same day..
2 wedding in other same day..
and 1 on it's own..
but what can i say..
i'm surrender..
i can't go to all event..
so sorry in advance..

wedding here... wedding there..
when's my wedding?? toing toing...

'transplant hati'

hatiku,.. hatimu jua..

kalau lah ungkapan itu semudah kita mengungkapnya..
tentu takde yg sakit hati..
atau makan hati..
juga kecil hati..
atau terasa hati..
kerana kita tidak akan pernah sanggup..
menyakiti hati org lain...
kerana takut hati kita juga akan disakiti...

tapi.. malangnya..
ungkapan itu tidak tepat..
malah tidak pernah betul...
kerana;
mana mungkin..
setiap manusia punyai hati & perasaan yg sama..

agak-agaknya..
ada tak antara kamu,
yang baik hati..
ingin buat transplant hati..
menggantikan hati ini..
yg dah tak rupa seperti hati..
sebab dah berkali-kali..
dikecewa & dianggap tak bererti..

entahla yer..
kalau sakit jantung boleh ke IJN..
kalau hati yg sakit?

pintu...

baru saje baca blog si budak chomel..
salah satu mcm ditujukan khas untuk diri ini..
walaupun bukan.. terasa seperti..

pintu.. tentu korang terfikir..
pintu apa?
pintu hati la yg dimaksudkan..

bukalah pintu kepada mereka yg mengetuk..
jgn menungggu satu pintu sahaja terbuka,...
kerana pintu yg ditunggu itu belum tentu terbuka..
mungkin dibina drpd 7 lapisan keluli..
mungkin juga ditambah 7 lapisan konkrit..
sehingga keras seperti teras bumi...
sehingga tidak sedar kehadiran diri ini...

entah la kan..
kekadang ada benar kata-katanya..
infact, mostly apa yg dia cakap tu benar belaka..
cuma terkadang, hati ini agak keras..
keras mahu mengaku kalah..
keras mahu menerima hakikat..
sekerasa teras bumi tadi..
kerana hati ini sudah terpahat..
sudah terikat..
hingga sukar diurai..

sebagai watak di pentas dunia..
semua punya agenda tersendiri..
punya peranan dan ketetapan..
punya hati dan perasaan..
juga dikurniakan pintu-pintu pelbagai rupa..
yang tidak pernah berhenti tertutup & terbuka..
tidak kenal lelah dgn rasa kecewa..

dan ada ketika..
seperti mahu sahaja pintu ini dikunci..
anak kuncinya dibuang ke laut..
biar tiada siapa yang jumpa..
biar tidak bisa dibuka..
walau diketuk, biarkan saja..

tear drops on my guitar - taylor swift

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see

*i don't own any guitar.. but the song touch me so bloody much..
and the tears drop nowhere...*

kerja & tanggungjawab...

tiba-tiba terasa badan ini sengal-sengal..
mungkin mahu demam..
semalaman tidak tidur...
ditala kesejukan aircond..
sedangkan siang hari telah lelah..
melayan kerenah...

begitu la adatnya bekerja..
perlu ikhlas dan sentiasa bersedia..
tetapi bersediakah anda..
jika perlu bekerja..
sedangkan bukan waktunya..
sedangkan anda tahu..
hakikat mereka yg tidak hadir bekerja..
kerana keluar bersuka-suka..
sediakah anda..
ikhlaskah anda...

bukan lah mahu bermanja..
bukan juga mengadu domba...
hanya mahu diambil iktibar..
bekerja lah kerana tanggungjawab..
bekerja lah kerana ibadat..
dan bekerja lah seikhlas hati..

*kepada adik-adik yg 'suka-suka' datang kerja tu...
tolonglah.. bantulah.. ubahlah persepsi..
jadilah warga kerja yang bertanggungjawab...*

nukilan bos kecil.. yang kecapekan... huhuhu

Selamat Hari Ibu...

"Selamat Hari Ibu...."

kepada ibu-ibu di luar sana..
terutama ibu tercinta...
ucapan istimewa diberi..
semoga dirimu diredhai..
hidupmu dirahmati...
diberi kekuatan melayan kerenah anakmu..
diberi ketabahan dgn ujian mendatang..
semoga dirimu tidak kesunyian...
sentiasa berada dalam kegembiraan..

sedikit cebisan untuk ibu tersayang; Pn Asiah A. Ghani

wahai ibu..
anakmu ini sgt bangga & terharu..
punyai ibu seperti kamu..
tidak lelah melayan anak-anakmu..
jarang menangis.. tersenyum selalu..

tanpa ayah dan suami..
tidak pernah sekali menyesali..
mengharung kehidupan sendiri...
kerana engkau begitu pasti..
Allah ada memerhati...
serta dikurniakan anak-anak disisi...

ku panjatkan doa setiap waktu....
semoga ibu sihat sentiasa...
gembira dan tidak berduka..
kerana itu pesanan ayahnda..
pastikan ibu sentiasa ceria...

*adek sayang mak.. selamanya..*

ptptn vs gaji

pergh.. one not so shock fact..
ptptn makan duit org.. giler ah..
teragak nak check baki pinjaman..
rasa bayar dari tahun lepas mcm dah bnyk la..

tup tup.. check semula.. mcm tak bergerak pn figure balance...
bila kaji kaji.. pelarasan sahaja ambil hampir 33.2%...
pinjaman bank pun tak tinggi gini..

ermm ini la nasib.. bila tak pinjam... di'persuede' amek..

bila dah guna.. of course la kena bayar..

tapi bila bayar mcm tak termampu plak...

ntah la.. sampai bila baru nak langsai...

gaji makin berkurang.. ptptn, dok tang gitu jugak..
ish ish ish

rindu

tatkala malam melabuh tirai..
ku masih merindu...
tatkala suria memancar sinar..
ku tetap merindu..

rindu mencengkam gelodak jiwa...
rindu membatas segala rasa..

bangkit.. hilangkan rasa..
sedar... akur dan pasrah..
tabah.. sabar dan taqwa...
percaya.. pada takdir-Nya..

*missing u much..*

CS rebound time..

yesterday nite : misunderstanding with mum...
consequence : sleep on floor (by choice); downstair.. sedey punya pasal..

this morning : go into wrong lane -- what the h**l i'm doing at smart lane??
moral : focus yer mind on the road..

this morning also : wrong parking.. almost get summon.. arghhh
moral : again.. focus babeh... n get yer coupon ready..

that's da most unorganize few moment in my life.. until i let it go with my bro..
just like i always do with my dad... let go n cry.. n cry some more..
consequence : got time off from my bro..

10.30am : drove my bro car's to CS..

10.50am : looking for damn parking..

11.00am : bought Forbidden Kingdom ticket..

11.15am : grab Big Mac n coffee

11.30am : go round da CS like crazy person.. just go round n round..
real reason : looking for jacket, but couldn't find one...

11.50am : the 'greatest' thing happen : my shoes heel broke..
why it greats : got reason to buy new shoes.. shopping time babeh..

12.10pm : with new shoes went to popular... the forbidden place.. huhuhu
why forbidden : will take a lot of time there.. miggle inside popular until 1.15pm

1.30pm : get into da hall n wait for the movie start..

1.40pm : da show begin..

3.15pm : show end.. nice one i tell u..

3.30pm : driving back to station... with more stable feeling n mind..

that's what i did today, thanx for my bro..
n i tell u... da movie n shopping mostly cure da unstable feeling.. n i feel good..
feel kinda down?? gave urself some rebound time n u'll be just fine...

now 6.06pm : back to meself.. da crazy me.. huhu

tapi bukan aku

Jangan lagi kau sesali keputusanku,
Ku tak ingin kau semakin kan terluka
Tak ingin ku paksakan cinta ini,
Meski tiada sanggup untuk kau terima

Aku memang manusia paling berdosa,
Khianati rasa demi keinginan semua
Lebih baik jangan mencintai aku dan semua hatiku
Karena tak kan pernah kan kau temui, cinta sejati

Chorus:
Berakhirlah sudah semua kisah ini,
Dan jangan kau tangisi lagi
Sekalipun aku tak kan pernah mencoba kembali padamu
Sejuta kata maaf terasa kan percuma,
S’bab rasa ku t’lah mati untuk menyadarinya

Bridge:
S’moga saja kan kau dapati
Hati yang tulus mencintaimu, tapi bukan aku

the bloody happiness??

people said..
when u feel down.. go pray.. u'll be in peace..

people said..
when u feel down.. go read Qur'an.. u'll be soothe..

people said...
when u feel down.. eat ice cream.. u'll be cool... or rather cold...

people said..
when u feel down.. eat chocolate.. u'll feel pampered..

people said...
when u feel down.. go sleep.. u'll be happy when u wake up..

done all that.. but the happiness still doesn't come..
where's the bloody happiness go??

so.. is there nothing right with what people said?

conclusion: it's only what people said..

ironman n the kiddies...

on 30th april.. the 2nd day of ironman opening in cinema.. me, myself, mum n the kiddies went to CS to watch ironman.. well.. it's the most waiting film so far.. so it's no surprise when my bro ask me to bring the kiddies to watch it.. what make real surprise is, it's upon the kiddies request.. can u believe it?my nephew n niece grown up already n becoming me... becoming movie addict.. hahaha...

da day went well.. n the kiddies so good that they can behave themselve.. the power of ironman.. when there's a time that they can't even sit still for few minutes, but with ironman: they unmoved even an inch.. ok ok that's a frankling speaking.. they moved, they talked, but the point is: ironman have that such power to make the kiddies sit still.. n it's got power to make me wanna watch it.. good n fun movie it is.. and after the movie finish; time to recall back all the scene by kiddies.. n they really have fun.. they told me so.. n as a proud "mak su" i took them all to kfc at petronas km 13 n have a late nite supper.. let them feel what i always did with my other cousin niece.. n my mum just can smile with the kiddies behaviour.. such a cute kiddies..

well maybe next time.. gonna take them to movie in da midnight.. huhuhu.. my goodness.. never thought the kids will grow so fast.. n i'm feeling that i'm getting old.. (^_^)

orchid house

30th april is my off day.. n as a dotting daughter, me myself built an orchid house for my mum.. it's nothing much, the important thing is: it's done.. it's the simplest orchid house one will built but that's what i manage to do.. n all the orchid n other flower wont be under hot sun no more... they got house for themselve.. yippie..

the only regret in me, not using any hand protection while do the cement thing... n it's eating my hand.. urgh.. i had the dried feel on my hand.. need lotion all the time.. so ladies n man.. don't forget to wear something when u do heavy job..

have a nice day...

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terkadang sendiri termanggu..
adakah kehadiranku mengganggu..
terkadang akal terfikir..
di mana silap sehingga terpinggir...

terkadang hati berkata..
tiada kah sayang antara kita?
terkadang berkecamuk perasaan..
tiadakah aku dalam ingatan..??

terkadang sendiri merenung..
perlukah aku terus menyanjung..
terkadang tercalar jati diri..
terasa seperti mengejar simpati..

apakah itu yg perlu dilalui...
untuk memenangi secebis hati...
apakah itu yg perlu ditempuhi..
untuk mendapat teman sejati...

the kablo'ee besday bash

huhu.. the title already told everything.. it's da supposed besday bash for my bro a.k.a our Boss.. ermm this entry should be a few weeks before.. but i just had time to wrote it n all.. what with my bz life n my kinda down feeling..

the date was on 24th april.. we already organize the small besday surprise party for our beloved boss.. well we all love him.. who doesn't... the best boss one ever had.. i'm not byass.. not because he is my bro.. but what i wrote is from the eyes of the employee.. ish ish ish.. what the h**l that i'm babbling..

back to my bro besday bash.. the day going smooth n i'm perfectly sure that the surprise party will going well.. but whenever something almost perfect, there will be the end of it.. my bro came to my house while i'm packing da food.. so no more surprise for the food thingy.. and i told him the truth that we all collect da money to buy food... it's kinda nice coz he actually did ate the food 1st.. n he's so impress with me.. i can cook.. can u believe it.. he said i can cook n he like it.. huhu.. i told him to go and meet me at station.. me n my mum will come later with da food.. what he doesn't know.. we had one more surprise.. the cake.. kinda big one.. that's he really surprise.. and feeling kinda touching too.. he doesn't see that one coming.. thought only had food n pudding.. hey.. it's me; fara.. however the surprise kablo'ee.. i'll make sure there will be another surprise.. n there goes da kablo'ee besday bash for my bro..

see ya next entry...