p.l.o.t.t.w.i.s.t

Allah mengingatkan hambaNya dengan pelbagai cara..
Allah mahu kita kembali mengingatiNya..
mahu kita lebih dekat denganNya..
kadang kita alpa..

and i accept that...
i accept that as a challenge..
i accept that i've been doing wrong thing all this long..
that's why Allah 'nudge' me..
so i can get back to my own two feet...
to my own reality...
i've dream too bloody much..
but the thing is..
it's too much to handle...
i'm just this lowly human being..
yes.. my self-esteem kind of down the drain right now...
suddenly i lost my confidence.. i lost my strength..
i don't feel good to just been alive..
i lost my feel for happiness..
i just lost...
tried hard to back on track.. but damn if it's not easy...
and then i realize.. i really do lost hope..
i just wish everything just stop..
i had enough...  

then ramai berkata..

SABAR.. semua ada hikmahnya..
SABAR.. akan ada pelangi di penghujung taufan..
SABAR.. setiap org pelbagai cara ujian yg dtg..
SABAR.. SABAR.. and SABAR..

and then i SNAP.. and now i'm the bad guy..

after a while.. i found some quote saying..

IF something goes wrong in your life,
just yell "PLOT TWIST!!" and move on..

the thing is.. i've tried thousand times shouting PLOT TWIST.. but to no avail..

it's not bloody working..
i'm not joking.. it's really not working...

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