Wednesday, 24 February 2010

congrats love...

ho yea.. ho yea..

Westlife won Best Irish Pop Act for the 10th year in a row...
@ the annual Irish Meteor Music Awards...
congrats n congrats lads...
u did it again..

here some pict from the award ceremony..
credit to WESTLIFE.GR
*thanx a bunch sweatheart..*

lads with the award

looking good lads

Friday, 19 February 2010

girl can dream..

how did u know if u fall for someone??

the butterflies fluttering around the stomach..?? check
stumbled over the words when see that person?? check
feel the rush of adrenaline through ya body?? check
feel all the blood rushing to ya face?? check
feel your palm sweat for no reason?? check
feet, root to the floor, unmoving?? check
the heartbeat pump so fast u likely pass out?? check
or blushing like mad, when u happened a glimpse of them??? check

well well.. i can list all the checking thing of how we felt when we fall in love..
surprise how i knew those list??
i'm not that daft.. i read.. those romantic novel huh.. *blushing*
but the thing is.. is that all u must felt??
or is it not love, if u don't feel the string pull on yer chest??
is it not normal, to call it love when u not even aware u feel like all the list up there???

it's been a while when I'm actually involve with anyone..
pushing myself in those game..
don't ambush me please..
after all it's my bloody opinion yeah..
after few times heart broken.. i always thought it's just a game.. kind of
coz most of the time.. u just get in and gamble..
look if you survive or fail..
happily ever after if u succeed..
felt like on the funeral when u heart broken..
so... maybe my thought can't be count..
but who cares huh.. *evil laugh*

but.. i also happened to know my heart..
hey,.. four by four, it's my heart we're talking about..
of course i must aware what it's feeling yeah..
stupid me to think otherwise..
(aucchhh.. i pinch my arm now.. to be that stupid.. hahaha)

enough... (no no.. i'm talking to myself.. still laughing)
let see.. i'm not that kind of girl who so romantica d'amour..
not for a while...
but i know i am before..
maybe i just get heartless after few times..
so didn't know exactly how to express myself much..
didn't exactly knew when my heart actually need to open up to someone..
because some people said..
i need to open up..
look at all those open door..
look out for any potential..
yet i can't see any..
not in front of me.. no..
or maybe... i didn't realize it..
that's why at the start of this entry..
i ask..
how u know if u fall for someone..
becoz.. the truth is..
i have no idea..

hurrmm.. a girl can dream yeah..
to finally met her Mr Right..
to finally embrace the feeling to be in love..
i want that feeling too..
but.. most important thing is...
i just want someone who i can be myself with..
someone who will love me for me..
who will understand me when i need my space..
someone who don't care if i snore.. (did i?? hahaha)
someone who will not freak out when i ate sundae chocolate n fries..
someone who doesn't care how i look when i woke up..

someone who still see me as beautiful as i am..
even if i just wear sweatpants n t-shirt..

(i know i'm not pretty or anything.. laugh all u want.. i don't bloody care)
the point is..
i just want someone who will be there..
as my friend.. bestfriend.. rival infact (in a good way)..
a lover n soulmate..
maybe u guys will said
"yeah yeah.. nobody that perfect.. she'll never find one"
and yet again..
a girl just can dream..

Sunday, 14 February 2010

how i wish..

i got this from someone..
Someone i knew..
but too far away....
whom i wish..
to be here.. wif me..
for real..
coz this text..
this dedication..
seem so sweet..
seem so real..
yet it's far from reality...

i was engulfed by the feeling of loneliness when i read this..
yet so thankful for the thought..

and i can't thank u enough...
u know who you're..

miss u much..


If dreams were given to a lonely man
and a lonely man's dreams came true,
I'd force myself to sleep all the time
just so I could dream of you

If wishes were given to a lonely man
and I was given just two,
I'd wish for you to always love me
and the other I'd give to you

If my tears could write a love song
I'd write a love song for you,
It would explain just how I feel inside
and how much I love you too

But, dreams are only dreams
and wishes seldom come true,
My tears can't write a love song,
but when they fall, they fall for you

Thursday, 11 February 2010

my love..

new header in the house..

well.. it is a new header...
i just need a feeling to change something..
and after a mo..
the header actually on the way..

nothing fancy actually..
quite sometime me playing wif photoshop..
the only thing i love doing back then...
look like i'm getting old yeah.. hahahha

so.. new header wif my long love..
my God..
11 years wif this boys.. (almost 12 years...)
who actually turn to be a fine man..
and i thank 'dak Chomel' for that...
she is the one who actually call me to see the 1st vid clip ever...
and from that moment..
the year 1998 as i remembered..
stuck in front of the tv..
and they stuck in my heart forever...

anyone who know me..
actually knew me..
will know how much i love this boys...
this Westlife boys..
so.. it just right to conclude them in something i like...
to put them on my only blog..
to share them wif anyone who actually like them..
and i really don't care if no one like it..
i just do..

so.. for the last time..

my love header is here to stay...


quite sometimes..

oh my God..
sangat lama tidak update blog...
rasanya mcm dah bersawang segala mcm...

well... what can i do..
life kinda hectic at the mo...
with CNY around the corner...
with crew being sick one by one..
i also gonna be sick..

busy.. busy.. busy...
the quote kinda blend wif me somehow...
some of my friend felt neglected..
i'm so sorry dear...
u know who u're..
i'll find time yeah..
we will get together...

have some drink..
do a lot of chit chat...
we will...
just bear wif me for sometimes...

i really miss doing all the stuff when i'm study..
even at the start of my 'career'...
back then..
i kind of have all the time in the world..
i didn't say that i don't like my job now..
i like it.. love it...
it does gave me something to do...
something to look forward to..
to actually forgot what i don't have..
or don't belong...
for having time to sit back.. n chill..
i miss that feeling...

well... that's all for now..
for u guys who wondering if i'm still exist in this world...
i am still here...

until later..