the sweet rejection...

sweet rejection???
ko giler aper fila..
rejection pun sweet..
memang kompem esok masuk spital gila...

i called it sweet rejection..
coz it's make me realized..
that's life really not what we expected..
(tau dah.. tapi saje buat2 lupa)
whatever we want...
we never get it..
whatever we need...
we never truly achieved it..
even how bad we think we deserved it...
ain't it damn crazy????
it's so sweet n gonna make me having a diabetic...
it's bloody unhealthy...
and sweet rejection just a word for my not-so-heartless heart...
( thought i'm not having jiwa kaco : i'm WRONG )
the truth is i feel like dying...
dying.. drowning...
i thought i'm gonna be stronger the 2nd time.
it worst...
i still have hope in myself the 1st time..
but the hope for myself gone with the wind the 2nd time..
gone n not coming back..
double damn...

( T _____ T )

hurmm.. takmo jiwa2 kacau la...

alhamdulillah...
my lone ranger UK trip sudah selesai...
walau sempat merasa panic sekejap kat PARIS..
it's really fun ride..
really really adventure...
and i won't trade it with anything..
the experience such a sweet mémoire for me...

hurmm...
oppsss kisah lone ranger trip tu sambung kemudian yer...
akan saya sertakan gambo2 yg sopan..
yg aksi terlampau tuh kena simpan elok2..
takut kena sue pulak..
hahahha

bila dirantauan...
hati merindu...
biasa la berjauhan kan...
*jeng jeng jeng*
pikir la dik...
tak dapek jawapan punya..
kes admirer yg tak baper nak secret..
but no such respond..
not the one i like to hear..

so...
seperti biasa...
hati ni dah ala2 heartless...
jadi harus buat another aim...
supaya tak terjebak dlm jiwa kacau seperti dulu..

nak kumpul duit..
nak buat EUROPE TRIP pulak...
hah.. hamek ko...
tak teragak-agak..
harus la belajar france atau spanish..
itu perancangan dan impian tambahan..
(supposed UK trip impian trip terbesar)
but people can change...
especially bab melibatkan jiwa raga ni..
so will see la yer...
i'll give 2 to 3 years..
insya-Allah...
aminn...