apple.. not the one u eat...

my my...
once u're human...
forever human..
and u won't satisfied with one thing u ever had...
u always want more...
and it's include me..
well.. i'm a bloody human yeah..

so.. after macdee... (he still be the one)
i've got my eyes on other apple stuff..
NO.. NO.. not the one u ate...
not granny smith.. or gala apple.. or whatever...
it's the apple stuff that start with 'i'...

i really want to have at least 2 out of 2...
hahahaha... wishful thinking...
one if really lucky...
if there's suddenly money fall down from the skies..
no problem then...
but, that's the myth create by crazy people...
other than u got it yourself..
or ask others to give it to u...

the iPod touch is the one i will try to have my hand on..
with my own money... Insya-Allah...
but if i ever lucky to have iPod nano or iPod shuffle??
probably not from me...
as an advance birthday presie???
anyone???
*flipping my not-so-long eyelashes*
well enough said...
*finger cross*

mak & ayah ; kalian guru sebenar..

terlambat atau tdk..
selamat hari guru untuk ayah dan mak...
ucapan ini bukan kerana profesion,..
tetapi kalian adalah guru sebenar dlm kehidupan kami adik beradik..
kalian tidak lelah mengajar kami..
mendidik sepenuh hati...
memberitahu apa yg benar dan salah...
membelai dlm tegas dan kasih sayang..
mengajar kami erti TABAH...
menyediakan kami untuk pentas dunia...
yang tak akan tergagah tanpa kalian...

untuk itu, kami terhutang nyawa...
adek sayang kalian, ibu dan ayah adek...
sayang yang diharap membawa ke syurga..
ameen...

me = movie freak?? totally

it's 2.40 am.. and i cannot sleep...
blame it to the coffee.. LOL
alrite.. alrite..
it's not a coffee fault..
i can sleep even just after i had a cup of coffee...
i'm just kinda excited...
i had my lone ranger time tonite...
what a bliss...

yeah yeah... lone ranger... who care???
i do... BIG TIME...
especially when i got to watch movie in my lone ranger slot..
ok.. i do love to have company...
to have my mum.. my cousin...
my friends.. my everyone...
but the lone ranger time is what i'm craving...

after a while...
i realize that movie is one way of my stress release..
*yes.. i got this some stress in some point in my life rite now*
*no big*
i try everything...
everything that i can imagine..
everything that people told me to do...
everyway to cool down my stress...
spiritual... mentally... name it..
no such luck...
and i had this nagging feeling...
keep asking myself to go n watch some movie..
walla... it's work..
i can feel my stress go down the notch...
and my head kinda clear...

so, is it make me a movie freak??
movie bitch???
whichever.... i don't care....
as long i'm happy..
n got approved from my mum...
*chill*

(^_^)\/

pst : i've watch ROBIN HOOD, Crowe version... like it very much...
no no... i'm not comparing with Costner verse...
it's unfair to compare...
they got different time n year in making..
they got totally different hero n heroin...
they got different story telling...
n got different everything...
but... what amazed me..
they still got me in same excitement...

love Costner verse... n in love with Crowe verse...

love in the air?? NOT

love in the air?? NOT


i just had some conversation with my dak chomel..
as usual, she know how i'm feeling rite now...
she said, i'm in a sad mood..
lonely even..
it's not entirely true.. also not entirely wrong..

i do feel lonely...
but i already channel myself to better purpose...
to better things to do with my single life...
i just need time, money n faith... LOL
it will done.. insya-Allah.. if everything goes accordingly..

so.. back to the lonely feeling..
i'm almost 29...
wonder how i will get there??
no boyfriend.. no husband..
not even acquaintance...
but, i know.. maybe my times not arrive yet..
maybe 'the one' still riding the horse...
or stuck in jam..
or even got problem in the airport..
yeah yeah.. me n my pathetic imagination..
but whatever n whenever..
i still have faith..
that one day..
one sweet day..
i'll find 'the one'..

so.. what did make me still hold to that vision???
looking n waiting for 'the one'??
beside my late dad who i look up very highly....
it's my brothers..
they're definitely a good man..
a good n tentative husband...
and a great dad to their kids..

i know..
there's the time they gonna feel upside down..
the problem follow them everywhere...
but hey.. that's marriage.. n that's life...
even then,
they still getting strong with their loving family..
lovely wifey n cutest kids...
and i really hold on to them..
if they can manage the family life they're having now...
i'm sure there will be 'the one' for me...
that's how BIG my faith with my brothers...

i know no one is perfect...
but we can try to make the imperfect pretty perfect..
if there's a will, there's a way..

hopefully they will keep my faith in them..
keep the believe that i hold into them...
keep the respect that i only reserved for them...
be strong to their families...
to their wife n children..
coz, i tell u..
if they don't hold it strongly..
i'm afraid..
my believe to ever find 'the one'..
will vanish into thin air...
my respect for them will be gone..
NO..
i'm not joking..
i'm dead serious..
i love them too much to make it like a funny thing..

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just wanna say that i hate 'adamaya' now..
well i love the show back then..
now, i'm not even watching...
loath it with my whole life.. LOL

maya are so stupid...
got a lovely husband that is adam,
still want that damn x-boyfriend, dani..
no matter how u love that person..
u already have a great husband n cute kid..
what the hell that she thinking to get divorce and married to her x????

if i ever find the real person like maya in my life..
i gonna shoot her dead.. hahahahhaa
shoot her dead and stamp on her face..
dani was your x-boyfriend..
surely he doesn't meant for you...
that's why u married adam..
so.. get a life n move on..

just my two cents...

coincidence?? or just the way

is it a bloody coincidence??
or just the way i said what i feel??
in my blog..

damn...
i'm not intended to write in my blog,
only when i'm feeling down.. (boring stuff yeah)
when my heart ache..
when i can't told people around me what i really felt...
no.. not my intention...
alas, still doing it..
coz it's the only way to let things go...

i'm sad... suck BIG TIME...
see the word BIG TIME???
yeah right...

about what?? i don't bloody know..
darn...
shoot me, why don't u people???
(so u don't have to put up with me n my stupid ranting n all)

hurmmm... a lot of stuff happened...
and the 'beautiful' thing bout it...
i didn't even realize..
or acknowledge..
or embrace it well..
or even pay attention..
or maybe...
it just me..
just the way i wanna it pass...

bloody hell...
i know it's never a coincidence...
that i will write when i'm feeling down..
i know now..
that's just the way...
to let me calm down...
before i explode...

scary.. so bloody scary...

after working night shift..
i went back home for some rest..
had some lunch..
then taking few hours nap..

walla..
the scary thing happened..
i'm dreaming of my ex..
WT___??? please fill in the blank yerself.. LOL

damn..
it's really scary..
after like 10 years..
he just minding around in my dream just like that..

didn't said i hate him or anything..
bad thing happened..
in life.. in relationship..
i just don't want to be remind of him..
just that..
is it too much to ask??

please.. no more...
don't u ever dare to get into my dream again yeah..
ever..

Gave It All Away

hi there..
i'm listening to Boyzone new single...
GAVE IT ALL AWAY..
tribute to their lovable friend..
Stephen Gately a.k.a Steo..

suddenly i miss Steo...
before Westlife came along..
before i gave my heart to Shane...
(just bear wif me.. huhuhu)
and became Westlife massive fan..
I am the Boyzone fan..
I am Steo big fan..
eventhough Shane came n stay in my heart since 11 years ago..
there's some space in my heart that always belong to Steo..
and to see his friend miss him.. really miss him..
bring out the tears that i meaning to keep..

so.. enjoy da vid..
R.I.P Steo..
we love ya...

*video cannot be up.. there's error while uploading*
*click da title @ line 3 for the vid*