my promise to try..

hello gentle reader.. it's been a while, ait? sorry for long hiatus.. too much happening in my life right now.. will get back to it in a few next entry..

1st of, need to say thanks to this brilliant Cham that keep pushing me to keep on writing.. well, it's because of this damn blog, i get to know this dear one... so, this 1st come back entry totally dedicate for you... i did keep my promise, tho.. literally.. hahahah

Cham.. dear, jom ngedet??? hehehehe

psstt.. see you guys in next post..

New Year New Challenge Same old me

Yup.. the title said it all..
i know it's almost half way thru 2017, maybe i'm a little bit late to rant about what happened early this year.. but who cares.. well, maybe there's some people who cares and still come and visit my humble blog, for that, i can't thank you guys enough.. it does means a lot.. like really really a lot..

so.. what exactly happened in my life right now? of this past month? u wonder..

maybe some of u guys knew that i'm in new league..
no longer in O&G field like some people call it..
i'm taking a breather and change field, for the sake of seeking new challenge..
new challenge my a$#.. hahahaha
oppss, excuse the words, but yeah, let me tell u, new challenge, not pretty sight..
not in this wide range lovely world.. nope, nadaa.. *sigh*

see.. i told u, it's not pretty sight.. make me happier but also more stressful in some term...

let me take a breather again, i continue later yeah.. i'm just tired.. i donno.. i just did..

February almost ended..

It's 24th February 2016 already..
the month going to end in few days..
My journey to Kajol doesn't seem to be smooth tho...
Getting busy with Chinese New Year at workplace..
then getting sick about a week afterwards..

I'm trying.. but maybe not as bad..
Sue me.. but i just don't have any drive to do it anymore..
i dunno what happened...
the accused keep coming..
i've reason with myself all the time but i cannot find the answer, yet..
i hope i find it fast.. like really fast...

Viper Challenge will be here in 2 month.. same goes for the holiday..
please Fila.. wake up!!!

#diwale2015

credit to owner.. the picture is not mine..

Diwale is awesome..
like Super Duper Awesome,,,

Fine.. same old story line..
there's always love.. comedy.. some action.. and more dancing..
still.. hat off to the director, actors and actresses and the crews to provide us with the most entertainment movie to date..
This is personal..
No offense if u don't find it awesome or whatever..

The exact reason i went to watch the movie..
Dating with Mum..
She seem pretty excited when i told her there's new SRK and Kajol movie at the cinema..
And I bet u will find it so fulfilling when u saw her smile after the movie finished..
She like it so much.. you can't describe the feeling when u can make ur Mum smile with simple action..

Then, there's Kajol and Shah Rukh Khan..
did u even need another reason for this???
like seriously??
The best Couple on Screen ever..
and the best friendship off screen too..
22 years of relationship and going strong...
the emotions just spark everywhere..
watch it with your heart..
and u will feel it..

wait.. what?? need another reason?
orait orait..
it's the song and the view in every scene..
i need to put it together..
since the view in the song be made just spectacular...
u really can't denied it..
please go watch #gerua and i bet u won't blink your eyes with the scenery..
as #kakitravel (yup.. traveller when have money only.. hihihi) that's also the reason to watch the movie..
i already draw in my mind, that one day, one sweet day, insyaAllah.. i will go to those place that been shown in the movie...

and the song are such a sweet and nice-to-hear song..
give it a try..
hope u won't be like me who can't move on from this #diwale 'sickness' LOL

and i'm happy this will be 1st post in 2016..
such a heartfelt story / movie to feature on my blog..
i will take it that my 2016 will be awesome like this movie.. aminn insyaAllah..
so until later lovely people...

Happy Birthday Bro Pocket..

Hah yg ni antara member blog yg masih contact walaupun tak pernah dapat jumpa...

Sebab ramai jugak dah jumpa sebenarnya.. 

Takpe la.. maybe bebila Allah nak bg jumpa, kiter jumpa ek bro..

Nak tag link, mcm tak jumpa dah link blog kamu tu...

pepe pun

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASWAN a.k.a POCKET"

moga Allah berkati kamu dan keluarga kamu..

have fun with new age.. 

moga terus kuat untuk getting fit..

#fighting !!!

Demam tu pengampun dosa...

Alhamdulillah...Allah bagi demam sikit ja..
So terbantut lagik nak update blog ni dengan skala kekerapan setiap hari...
Harapan tinggal harapan gitu...

Actually memang tak larat tahap dewa...
Semalam dapat MC dan kena neb lagik..
adeh la..
dulu masa muda remaja, Allah dah pinjam kan nikmat sihat..
kadang 2 tahun straight tak sakit..
tapi dah berusia ni.. sekejap sekejap sakit..
Redha jek la ya fila.. kifarah dosa insyaAllah..

ok later kalau dah sihat, sy sambung janji nak kerap update blog tu ya.. sorry...

later lovely..

new look.. new determination.. new me...

Assalamualaikum...

Here we go again.. After few month hiatus.. I'm back.. for good this time...
I'll do my best to work on this blog..
Now i realized, after all this time, when i get back and read the older post, it did makes me smile...
Doesn't matter if it's a sad entry, or the happy one.. both makes me relive the moment..
It's true the memories still alive even after u forget about it for a long time..

So.. for celebrating the new comeback..
I have a new look for my blog.. hope u like it..
It's not as fancy as others.. but hey, i did it myself, well using some clip i found from google.. TQ a bunch anonymous owner.. nonetheless, i can pat my own back.. hell i still know how to use photoshop.. the struggle is real.. hahahah

Shoot.. that's it.. short entry for my comeback..
until later lovely people..
much love.. tq for still reading..

ok ok bye..

p.l.o.t.t.w.i.s.t

Allah mengingatkan hambaNya dengan pelbagai cara..
Allah mahu kita kembali mengingatiNya..
mahu kita lebih dekat denganNya..
kadang kita alpa..

and i accept that...
i accept that as a challenge..
i accept that i've been doing wrong thing all this long..
that's why Allah 'nudge' me..
so i can get back to my own two feet...
to my own reality...
i've dream too bloody much..
but the thing is..
it's too much to handle...
i'm just this lowly human being..
yes.. my self-esteem kind of down the drain right now...
suddenly i lost my confidence.. i lost my strength..
i don't feel good to just been alive..
i lost my feel for happiness..
i just lost...
tried hard to back on track.. but damn if it's not easy...
and then i realize.. i really do lost hope..
i just wish everything just stop..
i had enough...  

then ramai berkata..

SABAR.. semua ada hikmahnya..
SABAR.. akan ada pelangi di penghujung taufan..
SABAR.. setiap org pelbagai cara ujian yg dtg..
SABAR.. SABAR.. and SABAR..

and then i SNAP.. and now i'm the bad guy..

after a while.. i found some quote saying..

IF something goes wrong in your life,
just yell "PLOT TWIST!!" and move on..

the thing is.. i've tried thousand times shouting PLOT TWIST.. but to no avail..

it's not bloody working..
i'm not joking.. it's really not working...

- the end -

let start with simple post.. : weight loss or get lost

weight loss.. or get lost..

that's the only motto i need to have right bout now..

since the vitamin 'M' we like to call which is MALAS = lazy getting bigger and bigger in myself...

there's not much time, to actually lose the weight i want..

but better start than never ait..

two days.. and alhamdulillah the determination still intact..

hopefully i can get through this one week without hitch...

i still remember my ex-Team Leader words when i almost gave up the 1st time i joined #jomkurus..

she said "if u can get thru this 1st week, u can get thru this weight loss program.. the key is never give up"

and indeed.. alhamdulillah i get thru until the end.. even it's only six week program.. it's kind of hell for me who doesn't like exercising and dieting..

but i make lots of good buddy back then...

and that's not bad at all...

they keep me sane..

they did help me get thru this such-hell-yet-intresting weight loss program..

just like my mum who became the biggest cheering person ever..

and she did again now..

so, who me to decide to give up even without trying again...

so good luck fila!!

remember.. WEIGHT LOSS OR GET LOST

Korean Language, Intermittent Fasting, Larome and HIIT

Assalamualaikum.. 

" Korean Language, Intermittent Fasting, Larome and HIIT "

this is my targets for September.. 

yes yes yes

it's like i lost my mind for a second..

4 targets in a  month?

but one can dream... lol

i need to at least try, right.. 

we never knew the output if we never give it a damn...

coz i read some quote somewhere

'The thing always happens that you really believe in; and the belief in a thing makes it happen'

- Frank Lloyd Wright

i want to make it happen.. i do believe i can achieve it...

i don't care if the outcome not as much as i want.. 

at least at the end of the month..

i can proudly said;

'hey look, i did it'

so wish me luck ^_^

until later lovely..

alhamdulillah.. Aussie trip done...

salamz lovely... it's done.. our single girls trip to Australia done with success..

i'm having the trip as part of my BIRTHDAY gift to myself..

the date was on 21st August until 27th August 2013.. 

and my birthday on 17th.. 

kind of post-birthday present.. hohohoh

there's surely will have some of the moment we want to add but can't do because of time constrain...

nonetheless we're happy with what we achieve...

huh.. hamek ko.. terus fefeeling speaking gitew.. hahahha

ok ok ok...

sajer jek la..

dah lama tak menulis.. surely rasa ntah apa2 kan...

amek mood orang kata..

so meh la kiter jenguk apa yg berlaku pada kami tika berada di Australia ..

enjoiiiceee...

the arrival at Sydney Airport.. 

fefeeling depan lodge.. 

we stayed at Springfield Lodge.. *recommended*

best woo....

with Azreen.. geng budak skolah.. hahaha

*sebab dr Malaysia punya tourist ka, org local sana ka, dok kata kami student*

cet.. Kuala Lumpar?? apa daaa

ferry ride to Manly.. sebab 1st day tak tau arah tujuan.. so hentam saja la... hahahha

the beautiful Opera House view from ferry ride

so that's what happened to us on our 1st day on 22nd August 2013...

sesat jgn citer... main taram jek jalan..

but we met few nicest people..

that's keep asking us if we're lost..

and that one Sir who helping us with the direction mark us as STRONG YOUNG WOMEN..

hahaha... padahal hakikatnya kami yg tak biasa jalan jauh dah lepak giler...

the weather so cold we can't hold it without helping from dear jacket, mafla n gloves..

nah.. i didn't wore one.. tak pandai.. 

tu azreen punya keje.. comel jek dia pakai gloves.. hihihih

night time tido rasa nak nanges kesejukan walau ader heater...

sleep with 3 layered duvet.. not helping much..

and we starting to miss Malaysia and the sun.. huhuhuh

23rd August 2013 such a beautiful day.. 

it's our second day.. 

we starting of with going to much waited places...

jeng jeng jeng...

M.A.D.A.M.E T.US.S.AU.D.S

ohh the feeling to take picture with wax celebrity.. hahahah

yes we're poyos but who won't.. 

lalalala...

let's just enjoy the picture n be jealous with us ok.. hihihi

this man waited for our arrival.. poyos?? yup.. hahahh

let's pretend that we knew them.. but to no avail... hahaha

Barrack Obama???

King sangat.... lol

the girl n Gaga

aktiviti wajib bila melancong.. #jakun kot lalala

#coin souvenir

and the list of people is on and on and on.. 

so i'm gonna skip and put the pict that i like..

yeah u heard me right.. 

the one i like.. so please do bear with my choices ok.. 

i know u will.. thanx in advance.. 

u're just too sweet..

si azreen fefeeling manja gitew.. 

ok this is my F.A.V.E among all..

Hugh Jackman a.k.a Wolverine

just wish get to meet the real one...

well one can dreams.... 

lalalala

looks at the biceps.. 

the muscle reminds me of Kim Jong Kook..

eh tetiba plak masuk nama KJK ni.. 

*fening*

crazy girl with crazy pose.. 

fefeeling like taking with real one...

#scary much???

nicole.. the one almost like real life figure...

bruce willis uoalls..

the dress so soft n pretty... 

and it's good to hide my big tight.. hahahha

hahaha.. makes me laugh...

and this the end of Madame Tussauds trip..

ok dokie.. 

we continue later ek...

afraid u guys will overdose with the awesomeness picture.. 

*bagi can la nak perasan kan..* 

hahahha

ok lovely...

until next part...

muachhhhhh

love u all ketat-ketat

breath breath breath... Aussie here we come!!

there's another 6.. yes S.I.X days before Aussie trip..

yehuuu...

i mean.. 

i'm pretty excited...

even tho my target lost weight not up to par.. 

but i have to be grateful coz i'm still losing it.....

i'm feeling stronger...

which is better for our trip..

n i can wear all my old pretty (like really??!!) blouse n jeans...

hahahah

jimat duit woiiii!!!!

so.. i hope my dearie friend n companion will be excited as i am..

insyaAllah, there's will be an update when i'm back..

challo babeh...

UK part 6 : Cardiff

ohhh here here...

what's better to kick off the sleepy eyes ait..

let's continue the journey to another part of the UK...

this time.. make way for CARDIFF!!!

travel to Cardiff 13th-14th April 2011

*it's April now.. even two years part.. just in time to update.. lol*

and the best part..

i've met my dearest pet brother here in Cardiff...

not forgotten his lovely friends who welcomed me like long lost best friend..

to know them was the best part of my UK trip...

day 1st in cardiff.. after the hearty breakfast make by Abgdy..

*which i forgot to take the photo coz i'm so damn hungry.. lol*

we headed to Roath Botanic Park..

the housing model over here so pretty...

got to be model for 1st time since the trip..

been self-portrait for past 11 days.. lol

almost like sakura... bless

look at the flower.. felt like landing anytime soon...

they're quite friendly...

tour of the lake - done!!!

afterwards we went to see Cardiff town.. 

have fun sight seeing n shopping.. 

girl n shopping can't be stop.. hahahah

then heading home for food feast...

for 1st time in UK i had Malaysian food..

homaigooddd.. it's also the best part of the trip..

after 10 days.. i just miss home...

and those lovely new friends know that n together they make some dish for me..

the best lasagna ever...

*it's not Malaysian's food but once u tasted it, u really can't resist*

with the boys... and empty plate.. lol

the second day.. we've been shopping!!!!

always love shopping... *sigh*

with Mawar @Bridgent Factory outlet

with Faiz.. another pet brother..

it's not all mine.. just few.. 

and that's blender.. was a jack pot.. love it so very much...

enjoy like i am???

see ya next!!

UK part 5 : Birmigham...

Birmigham babeh!!!

i have 8 hours before been transfer to Cardiff from Manchester..

transfer by any means have to wait for the coach meh...

so what we have here in Birmigham??

u don't know? like seriously?

ok ok fine...

come let's enjoy the picture...

the biggest cadbury store i've ever been

had this bunch of time which i wish i didn't

*i can't smell chocolate in our kiosk for few days after back* 

*felt like throwing up every time*

this man a very nice man.. 

the chocolate ball in progress

i love shoes.. but just imagine u hold this n ate.. lol

n yes.. that's all..

the only place i've been in birmigham..

oh oh.. i had a very nice S&M egg sandwich in their train station...

until later love...  

sleepy day...

hello lovely..

it's sleepy day today..

ohh how i wish i can be home and sleep..

some more it's heavy rain..

~apa pun tak boleh~

the cousins..

tengah hujan plak.. 

plus lapar tahap dewa..

sementara nak tunggu masa hantar makcik cleaner balik...

moh ler kiter jengah peristiwa yang berlaku berbulan-bulan dahulu..

which i really wanna go back and did it all over again..

the day when the cousins strike.. lol

tak boleh blah kan ayat.. hehehe

time tu aku down sangat.. tahap dewa pun kalah..

stress ni dah sampai tahap bima sakti dah..

so my dearest cousin bagi cadangan supaya aku 'lari' dr umah dan keja...

sekejap la pun.. 

yang penting time tu hape pun tak peduli...

handphone pun 'on' sebab nak call Mak jek..
some more.. orang nak sponsor.. lol

then buat la aktiviti yg tak berapa nak ilmiah.. 

yang melibatkan memanjakan diri dan makan tak hengat.. hahaha

alhamdulillah.. it's really nice two days?? 

tak baper nak hengat la..

but it's something yg me'release'kan segala stress yang ada..

and i'm start fresh when i'm coming home..

thanx cousin Areza yg sanggup mendengar segala 'rant' sis..

I L.O.V.E Y.O.U M.U.C.H

now sila la enjoy the picture.. 

sure korang paham apa maksud aku manja diri n makan.. hehehhe

ni la cousin yang tahan kerenah aku

(ohh she's not only one.. dak chumel pun sama.. n jugak dak chumel punya kazen)

*tu nanti aku buat entry lain la ek*

oh oh baju yg dipakai tu pun tangkapan yg kami buat sebagai therapy.. muahahaha 

nengok.. memanjakan diri giler kan.. manicure gitu

balik hotel pesan Pizza Hut delivery.. makan mcm 5 org makan

ni hari nak balik.. makan lagik

nasi ayam dia sedap jugak.. 

dah kat airport sempat makan lagik sebelum terbang balik...

see see?? bab makan tu kami memang champion... 

mulai saat tu.. bila aku stress jek aku makan..

because with food..

i know there's something that won't failed me.. 

ohh diva lagik...

until next!!!

AJA AJA FIGHTING!!!